Have To Take Time To Think

Ok, I have been feeling good, and feeling excited. I have to think about this. I know that I have to take tiny steps. He seems to like me, he seems to be understanding. As understanding as he seems to be, there are things that he might not understand. I want to tell him, and just get it out into the open, but he's not ready to hear what I have to say.

I still don't know if it is real. I want it to be, but I don't think that he actually wants to be with me. We've been out on a date and we are going to go out on another date. Then he wants to spend the weekend with me. I'm not sure what he wants from me besides what every guy who has shown the slightest interest in me seems to want from me. I just don't want to fall for that again. I don't want something casual. That doesn't work for me.