What Would We Do Without Sunshine?

Today wasn't as muggy as the last few days had been. The wind was blowing, which felt nice. The rain felt even better. I wish it would really pour. I need to go out in the rain, to feel it on my skin... I feel ok, not the greatest, but it is better than feeling the way I had been feeling for such a long time. One day I will feel better though, much better. It is starting already. One day at a time....

The moon is so full and it is orange again. It turns orange when it will be hot the next day. I saw a really big moon only a few times in my life. It looks really amazing. I want to go star gazing by a camp fire to keep the bugs away. I want to sleep in the tall grass...

There are many things that I really do love like springtime when the animals are having babies and the blossoms are so fragrant on the trees. I really love the smell they emit. It's when you start to feel alive again, after the long winter that you thought might never end. That feeling stays with you for the summer, when you feel so alive, when you look up at the clear blue sky, take in the warmth of the sun, and take a deep breath.

I like watching the birds flying. I could sit there for about an hour, just watching them. I still wish that I could fly like that. I think everybody thinks about it at least once. What would it be like to fly like that? What is a bird's life really like? I wish I could pet a bird, just feel how soft their feathers are. They don't trust us. I don't blame them. We have been jealous of their gift of flight, of freedom. We are jealous of the gifts we were not given because we are greedy. We take for granted what we have been given. We barely appreciate it, if at all, the life we have been given, the chance to make it good. We also have the chance to make other people's lives good, but we are mostly fixated on our own desires.