Seeds in the Wind

I have been thinking a lot, about a lot of things. A few weeks ago I was taking a bus downtown and along the parkway there were billions of dandylions that have gone to seed. A sea of white dandylion heads. I started to think about the individual seeds and their potential to plant themselves wherever they land and grow into a flower. I think of them as flowers instead of weeds because they look pretty. Just think of a clear blue sky with the sun shining down, and the greenest grass you have ever seen sprinkled with yellow dandylions...

I like to stop and blow the seeds off. Sometimes I wonder if you are supposed to make a wish. I wonder what I'd wish for... Never really thought about it. It is funny if wishes actually came true or prayers for that matter. Everyone would be wishing and praying to win the lotto or something like that. It is a fact that most people stand a better chance of getting hit by lightning than winning the lotto. The CN Tower gets hit by lightning an average of like 75 times a year. You have to come to expect that. I mean it is a frigg'n lightning rod for crying out loud. I guess they close the restuarant at the top if it is raining. I remember seeing it when I went to Toronto five years ago. I stood at the base and looked up to the top. I never went into it. I used to be freaked out by walking near skyscrapers because when I was a little kid I was scared that they were going to fall on me.... It wasn't necessary an unfounded fear, but this is Ottawa and not NY. Eventhough it could probably happen anywhere...

I was watching a single white feather falling. It was sort of blowing in the wind. I was at a time in my life where I needed some sort of path to follow. Someone who was watching the feather flying told me that it could be compared to life because you never know where you are going to end up... You never know where the wind will take a seed, where it will land and plant itself. You never know where life will take you. Sometimes it can be like a puzzle and you don't get all the pieces right away. Or maybe it is like putting a puzzle together in the dark. You can't see all the pieces and you can only put together the pieces that fit.

Someone once told me that fate is fake because if there was a such thing as fate, there would be no free will. Maybe time and nature combined create the event and it is up to the person how they will be affected by it. It was an interesting conversation and then we started talking about insanity and how one cannot induce it upon themselves because it would be pretending to be crazy. If one believes in something so strongly, it becomes their reality. There is a such thing as common and individual reality. It depends on consensus and individual beliefs. If a person believed that they are crazy, they might just become crazy and therefore the insanity would be self induced. When I thought I was going crazy, I was assured that I was not crazy because the real crazy people believe that they are normal and that is a very scary thing in and of itself.

Seeds in the wind, is it destiny that they land where they land? And grow into what they become? I know it is a never ending cycle, but maybe things are determined before they occur. How many seeds are there? Many more than there are people on this planet. How often do we look at these things? Do you look at an individual seed and think about it? It might not mean anything, but it has a future destination. We all have a destination. How will you get to yours?

Try this: Next time you are outside. Pick a seeding dandylion, blow the seeds off and watch where they land. Make a wish and see if it comes true.