It's officially 2025...
So far, it's a peaceful day.
Still technically night, though.
Since it's the wee hours of the morning...
The pigeons are starting to stay over night.
Because when I got home, they were here.
Been wondering when they are going to lay eggs,
because they built a nest a couple of months ago.
When it stops raining, I'm going to clean it up out there.
And I want to clean it up, in here,
which is going to be the plan for the day,
starting after I get home from that thing I have to do.
Every year on the first day of the year,
I do a traditional thing. For good luck.
Well, not just for that, but it helps lol.
After that, I have enough here not to need to go anywhere
and continue what I started the other night.
That one pigeon's making its pigeon noises.
When I coo at them, they listen.
What did I do for New Year's Eve?
I went to my folks' place for dinner
and we watched a movie and Criminal Minds.
We also watched a mini-series, or whatever it was,
called In Cold Water.
It's about a guy who was charged in his wife's drowning.
Some think he didn't have anything to do with her death
and some people think he was totally guilty.
Anyway, he was released from jail.
And he ended up with a lot of money.
From her pension and policies.
Which was said to be the motive.
It happened in Shelter Bay.
By Revelstoke. BC.
Then I came home, had some snacks,
drank a Tiger malt, and just chilling here.
Earlier, we watched Family Feud Canada,
and it was between a family from Nova Scotia
and a family from Quebec.
The Question was:
What is best when it's plimp?
One of the guys said that be didn't know what plump means.
And that he'd go with PUDDING.
He was thinking of plumb pudding,
but he thought plumpudding.
He said the P at the end of plump
was the P in pudding lol.
HE SAID THE P IS IN THE PUDDING.
I sh*t you not, that was the guy's answer.
The pee is in the pudding!!!! lol.
That has to be one of the funniest things
I've heard in a while, next to sofa stain.
I laughed so hard I cried.
A fail at a fart competition.
It was a weird episode and I didn't know
that we have a Canadian version of the show.
Always only seen the American version.
Also, there was an Amazing Race Canada I watched.
It was as you'd expect Amazing Race style show
but it was a race across Canada.
Every province had a challenge unique to the province.
Like in Nova Scotia, they had a Scotish twist
on the challege where they had to convert
Scotish money to Canadian money.
And they use Shillings etc lol.
It's math my brain would have to grasp for a bit.
But another part of the challenge, they had to fold a kilt
and pin it correctly etc,
and find the matching tartan.
I was told my family has a tartan, actually.
I've never seen it.
My Grandmother's father was from Scotland.
My Grandmother used to have gaelic sayings
from when she was a kid.
I wish I could remember them.
But her father's 's name , family name
means Church in Gaelic.
My father's mother had a Finish last name.
I can't remember what it was.
Maybe her obit is still online.
That's how I found out she died. I came across it.
Same for my Uncle.
My father's brother.
My father's brother gave me my father's guitar.
He met with me a bunch of times.
After my father died.
He was the only one who'd talk to me.
His parents literally told me not to call them.
And my father's sister, one of them,
I had a few conversations with her.
None of them kept in touch or anything,
but at least they mentioned me in the obits, eh?
Along with the cousins I never met lol.
Anyway, pretty sure Google maps had my father's father
mowing his yard lol.
I lost the address I had, was supposedly his parents' address
since he had been living with them.
The story went that his parents left town and he stayed behind.
And when they came back, he was gone.
Easter Sunday. Something like that.
In one of the letters he wrote to me I think he mentions
the Easter Bunny.
I have a picture of my Grandfather dressed in a rabbit suit.
He'd dress up and do stuff at the retirement home.
I often went with them, to help out.
To pass cake out and do little stuff like that.
Used to be able to go volunteer there etc
and I went to do that with my Grandparents.
At the retirement home my grandfather's father was in.
And my grandmother was in, before her stroke.
Last time I was at that place, you might laugh at this...
I randomly met some guy by the bank or whatever,
AND IT F*CKING POURED THAT DAY.
WE WERE CAUGHT IN THE RAIN TOGETHER,
TALKING.
WHILE HE DRANK BEHIND A STORE LOL.
And he said he was going to meet up with his friends
and asked me if I'd join them so I did.
And that's where we hung out, at the retirement home.
In a tenants room lol, they were drinking,
but we smoked a joint lol,
at the retirement home lol.
That was the last time I was there.
But back when I was a kid, they had this thing
called bumper pool.
It had posts in the middle and the idea was to use them
as bumpers to try to get the balls in the holes
like in regular pool.
I'll always remember that. I always thought that was cool.
And I have a memory of "clackers"
They had these two plastic balls that swung on a "stick" made of plastic.
The idea was that when you have it in your hand,
and you make the back and forth motion
as you'd do if you were using a hammer,
the balls would "clack" together.
This was in the early 90s, pretty sure.
When neon was all the rage.
I have to admit, I still have a thing for neon blue.
I used to have neon blue stockings that I loved.
But yeah, neon was a pretty big thing.
I saw that they were trying to bring it back,
but I don't think that lasted long.
Anyway, pretty sure that's where I was
the first time I saw a "clacker."
The retirement home used to have an Easter egg hunt thing
for the kids to come and look for eggs and treats
around the retirement home.
The old people liked watching the kids hunt for the treats.
It was fun for all.
That's back when I was a kid,
and my memories of the place.
When my grandmother livd there,
I'd go see her with my son and she loved a show
called Man Tracker.
That show is pretty cool.
They have a guy who's a pro person tracker
and the show is the person competing against him
and trying not to get caught by the guy,
trying to make it to the finish line.
Without getting caught,
being tracked the whole way there.
The thing is the dude usually is on a horse.
THE HORSE CAN HEAR BETTER THAN WE CAN.
PRETTY SURE THE GUY WATCHES
THE HORSE'S REACTIONS.
Anyway, if they make it to the finish line
without getting caught, they win prize money.
I was saying to my mom that I can't believe
that someone we know is 75 now.
My mom turns to me and says
"I can't believe you're 40."
I said "I know. I can't believe it, either."
I don't feel 40. I was thinking yesterday,
that this year it'll be 20 years since I graduated college lol.
That's crazy, eh?
Graduated in 2005.
Started this blog in 2004.
As I was saying, though, the guy probably
relies on the horse to pin point the direction the "sounds"
the person trying not to get caught is making,
but trying not to make
as not to get caught.
My stepfather found a place that buys "lots"
from Amazon that were all returns or whatever
and they sell the stuff to make their money back +
How it works, is that they have $8.99 days
and the price keeps dropping for it,
because it'll go down even to $2.99.
My stepfather got these multi spectrum grow lights.
He's always showing me stuff he picked up from there.
All he's been growing are house plants right now.
He was saying their cactus already flowered this winter.
My plant, did, too.
When I was working with my ex,
there was a person throwing a plant away,
so instead of just throwing it in the garbage,
because the plant was still alive (still is)
I took it and put it in the office.
But it wasn't getting any sun there so they said
I should take it home, so I did.
And that was 9 years ago, I think.
Now the plant is 4 to 5 times bigger than it was.
It gets the morning sun in the window
where it is. I have to prop it up.
My mom taught me a trick to help plants grow.
Plants grow facing the sun.
If you turn the pot around, it gets the plant
to grow towards the other direction
where the sun is.
Because when you turn the plant's pot around,
so it's not facing the sun, it has to grow
towards the sun.
If you keep doing that, turning the pot
so the plant has to change direction
of where it's facing, it grows.
As it is, I have to prop the plant up.
I found some wooden heart on a stick
and I put it in there, for the plant
to have something to prop it up on.
And I bought little carvings of animals
from a vendor at a craft show.
Made of stone.
They are pretty small.
The lady says she puts hers in her plants.
So I gave them to my plant.
I gave one to a guy I met
who panhandles near the mall.
I stopped and had some watermelon with him and we talked.
That was the day I found that little girl
who ran away from her day care lol.
I took her to college
because my first thought was to get her
to a security guard and go from there.
She was reunited with her dad and all ended well.
Cute kid.
I raced her down the hallway to the security office lol.
I let her win.
We were able to get info from her.
And her dad had called in to report her missing.
The cops were called to the college
and one cop took a picture of her
sent the pic to the cops at the station
so her dad could confirm that's her.
Yeah.. When I saw her by herself, I was like...
Wait a minute! Let's have a little chat.
Are you lost? Where's your parents?
She was 5 years old. I'm not just going to let
some 5 year old be out there by herself like that.
Another time I saw another girl around the same age,
and she was out seemingly by herself
because her brother as out there too
but letting his sister play by heself.
So I sat with the kids, talked to them about safety
and asked them if they know their parents'
phone numbers.
That's something a kid should know.
When I was a kid, my mom used to write our #
on my arm so I could read it off my arm.
In ink. Yes, in INK.
But that's how I learned our #.
And I didn't need her to write it for me,
I remembered it.
So when I got somewhere, call her.
When I was leaving somewhere, call her.
If there was any emergency, call her.
If I needed to ask her something, call her.
But knowing your "home" # is important
for a kid to know.
So if anything happens,
they can call their parents right away.
The boy, her brother said something like
"The world's not dangerous."
Just a kid.
I didn't tell him any crazy wild stories or reasons
WHY HE SHOULDN'T LET HIS SISTER
PLAY BY HERSELF.
BUT I TOLD THE KID
NOT TO LET HIS SISTER PLAY BY HERSELF.
And hopefully, when they get older,
they'll think back to that talk,
and teach their kids their #
AND KNOW WHY THAT'S IMPORTANT
FOR KIDS TO KNOW.
Anyway, I was a kid before O-Town got an area code.
Before, we'd just have to dial the number, only.
Just a 7 digit number, before it became 10.
duh duh duh - duh duh - duh duh.
Mine was 526 48 45
Been like decades since it was that,
but that's what it was.
My Grandparents' was 235 54 81.
I've dialed it countless times.
I used to just call my Grandmother just to talk.
And I wrote telephone numbers on a paper
and put it up on the wall
so that when or if my son wanted to call my mom
or my grandmother, he could see the number there
and use it to call.
And he did, he called on his own
and knew where the numbers were that I put up for him.
Back when kids used to play outside and stuff.
Some of them do.
Just a lot of kids want to be in front of a screen
these days.
But doing stuff outside... You're only a kid once.
Climbing trees, catching frogs,
all kinds of stuff...
I was in a tree when I learned to do "the voice."
My neighbor and I were climbing trees
and he did a "voice."
And I was like: "Teach me how to do that!"
So what he said was to tighen your vocal cords
like you're going to couch and then talk.
I've scared people with "the voice"
because it kind of sounds demonic lol.
And people aren't used to it, at all.
I like doing a deep laugh in "the voice."
Anyway, when my brother was around the age
as I was when I learned how to do it,
my brother wanted me to teach him
how to do it.
So I taught him the way I was taught lol.
His voice gets deep when he does it.
You know how Dr. Claw from Inspector Gadget sounds?
Well, that's as low as my brother sounds
when he does "the voice."
He used "the voice" to train his dog.
To get his dog to listen and take him seriously.
It worked.
His dog is part pitbull.
Very happy and well behaved.
And pitbulls are supposed to be dangerously aggresive dogs...
It's not the breed. They have instincts like other dogs do.
BUT if you train a dog in the right way,
and the dog learns to listen,
the dog isn't going to just doing whatever.
Trained dogs are dogs that behave themselves.
I had heard someone compare a person's mind to a puppy.
Because if a personn isn't actively training their mind,
and themselves, their minds will wander
and acted like an untamed, untrained puppy.
Just as puppies need training, so does the mind.
I started doing more meditation stuff, lately.
I've got a method that works for me.
It's not hurting anyone,
and I'm aiming to strengthen some abilities I have,
by practicing with them.
I'm using an ability that I have to strengthen it,
and to experiment with, so to speak.
That's pretty much all I can say about that.
So far, it's been working for me.
As for mind training,
it is ONE THOUGHT AT A TIME.
THAT'S ALL IT IS.
THOUGHT BY THOUGHT.
It's a thing where you think
about your thinking...
You start to catch yourself
when you say:
Why am I thinking about this?
My mind still wanders all over
like a dog sniffing around.
NEURONS THAT WIRE TOGETHER,
FIRE TOGETHER.
And you can "prune" pathways you already made.
BY REPETITIVE THOUGHT PATTERNS
THAT WORE SURE A DEEP GROOVE
BY BEING PRACTICED
TO THE POINT IT SHAPED YOUR MIND
AND HOW IT WORKS.
You can make new pathways with new thought patterns
by practicing them.
I was watching some videos about NLP.
Neuro linguistic progamming.
Using language and patterns
to reprogram the brain.
Or the mind.
The brain is the organ itself,
the mind is the part that thinks ect.
Once a pathway that's already been connected for years
is pruned, it can grow another way.
We can also use the plant trick I wrote about.
How you change the direction of the pot.
As a metaphor.
We can say the pot represents the mind,
the plant represents the thoughts.
How about the sun the thoughts are growing towards?
What does that present?
Follow your own sun.
It's the physics and science behind how that works with plants.
It's psychology how it works with the mind.
Sometimes I can do the metaphor thing better.
But pretty much anything can be a metaphor
if you look at it as one.
And if you look hard enough,
you can find one,
and if you look even harder,
you can find more than one.
The metaphor within a metaphor.
Depending how hard you look
and how deep you can go.
Can even go deeper than that,
the metaphor within a metaphor within a metaphor.
Like those (dutch?) dolls that are nested inside.
But with metahors.
Someone was talking to me, trying to describe the universe to me.
And he had a shape he gave me.
And for whatever reason I said:
"More like a dodecahedron."
I don't even know why or how it came into my mind
like the universe wanting to describe itself
through my thought, at the time,
it was really weird.
I don't even know wtf a dohecahedron is.
Or why I thought of it, but there you have it.
The universe might be a dohecahedron.
Or a dohecahedron inside a dohecahedron etc.
Pretty deep, eh? Something to think about. I guess you can tell I'm high lol.
But really, the metaphors are there, always there.
And sometimes metaphors can help you see things differently.
On a deeper level with a deeper meaning.
Sometimes I wish I could talk about this stuff,
but I've learned, in my life,
It seems that I can only talk about surface level things
with surface level people.
Certain people won't even entertain these kinds of thoughts
BECAUSE THEY ARE TOO CAUGHT UP WITH
SURFACE LEVEL BS.
LIKE DRAMA, GAMES, F*CKERY.
TW@TERY.
They are so caught up in THAT TO THINK.
FOR THEMSELVES, OUTSIDE OF THAT.
WHICH IS WHAT I WISH THEY COULD SEE
SO THAT THEY COULD JUST NOT BE ABOUT IT.
But it's not just society, it's "cultures" and "sub cultures" within society.
Because they have specific values etc.
And a lot of views that are attached to some things I've seen,
It was based on superficial surface level "constructions."
AND THAT'S ALL THERE WAS.
AND THAT'S NOT ALL THERE IS,
BUT THAT'S WHAT MOST PEOPLE THINK.
THAT WHAT THEY BELIEVE
AS PART OF THEIR CULTURE / SUBCULTURE
IS THAT'S ALL THERE IS.
That is just the surface.
SURFACE TENSION.
Here's another metaphor...
When I used to go swimming,
it's a common thing to do a "belly flop"
you land hard on the surface of the water on your stomach in that case.
And it can actually hurt
if you hit the water flat at a speed.
But it's about breaking the surface tention,
to be able to go into the water, below the surface.
And I did say that water is a conductor.
And I did mention so is the moisture in the air.
I think that has something to do with lightning,
because when it's raining, more water = more conductivity.
Maybe that is what was being tested when electricity was discovered?
It was possibly merely a conductivity test.
Sometimes I test conductivity.
With reiki type energy stuff,
to try to conduct it through my body,
and through the air.
To me, electricity is always in the air.
And air is a conductor like water,
because of vapor in the air.
and we are conductors, also because of the water in us.
Brains have electromagneticism.
So do hearts. They have "fields"
Like a "force field."
But the "force" is electromagnetic.
Not just energetic.
Anyway, before I get too carried away about this stuff, I should probably
try to get some rest.I have stuff I want to get done tomorrow.
Tomorrow as in today, after I wake up.
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