"To Get My Way"

I wonder why it is that some people tell on themselves... 
If you pay attention, they do. 
BY THE THINGS THEY DO, 
AND THE THINGS THEY SAY.

JUST... PAY ATTENTION. 
TO EVERYONE.

WHEN THEY TELL YOU THINGS.
THE WAY THEY SAY THEM.

THEY DO IT FOR A REASON....

1) BECAUSE IT WORKED BEFORE
2) IT HASN'T WORKED YET, BUT THEY HOPE IT DOES

I get paranoid sometimes when someone contacts me out of the blue. 
BECAUSE I KNOW THERE IS A REASON THEY ARE CONTACTING ME
OR TRYING TO CONTACT ME. 

THEY WANT SOMETHING. 

Pay attention to QUESTIONS people ask you... 
ESPECIALLY THE OPPOSITE SEX.

MEN ASK WOMEN CERTAIN QUESTIONS
FOR A REASON. 

MORE THAN ONE REASON. 

KNOW WHAT IT IS, AND YOU'LL KNOW THEIR MOTIVE.

AND IF YOU NEED TO CONFIRM IT..... ASK!
SEE IF THEY WILL BE HONEST!

BECAUSE IF THEY ARE.... GREEN FLAG... GREENISH.
IF THEY LIE... RED FKN FLAG. 

"WHY ARE YOU ASKING ME (XYZ)?"
IF THEY DON'T ANSWER IT OR WANT TO...
RED FKN FLAG.

BECAUSE IT IS A QUESTION. 
THAT DESERVES AN HONEST ANSWER. 

I was contacted by a guy... Randomly... 
He wanted to "meet me."
WHY TF DO YOU WANT TO MEET ME?

I TOLD HIM I AM NOT INTERESTED IN DATING 
OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT...

HE SAID:
"I UNDERSTAND YOU'RE NOT INTERESTED IN DATING, 
BUT WE CAN MEET AND SEE WHERE IT GOES..."

SEE WHERE IT GOES?
HE ALREADY HAD A FKN DIRECT IN MIND.
THAT'S WHY HE WANTED TO "MEET."
THAT'S WHY HE WAS ASKING ME IF I WAS SINGLE... 
AND IF I FKN LIVE ALONE!!!! WTF????
DON'T DO THAT SH*T!

THE REASON YOU'RE ASKING ME IF I LIVE ALONE
IS BECAUSE YOU WANT TO KNOW
IF ANYONE WOULD BE AROUND
IF YOU CAME OVER TO MY PLACE... 

WHY??????? THERE'S A REASON. 

WHY WOULD I WANT TO BE ALONE WITH SOMEONE
WHO TRIED TO GET ME ALONE IN THEIR HEAD FFS?

"DOES SHE LIVE ALONE?!"

WHAT DOES THAT LOOK LIKE?

IT LOOKS FKN GROSS. THERE ARE OTHER QUESTIONS TO ASK.
AND OTHER REASONS TO ASK THEM. 

But, yeah, that's GROSS. 

AND THAT DUDE WHO SAID BYE TO ME TODAY... 
WHATEVER DUDE.

BECAUSE I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING?
WHY? BECAUSE I'VE BEEN DOING MY OWN THING?

GEE, WHO DOESN'T TALK TO ME? MOST PEOPLE?
AM I SAYING THAT SHIT TO THEM?

THEY'D DROP ME IF I FKN DID!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'D BE ME WALKING OUT OF THEIR LIFE.
BECAUSE I WANTED THEIR ATTENTION?
AND TREATED THEM LIKE I WAS FKN ENTITLED TO IT?

FK THAT SH*T! FK THAT!

THEY'D TELL ME TO GO FK MYSELF IF I ACTED LIKE THAT.

AND I COULD HAVE TOLD HIM TO GO FK HIMSELF. 

AND HOW DID HE TREAT ME BEFORE THAT? GOOD? GREAT?
FKN WONDERFUL?

MAYBE THAT'S WHY I WASN'T FKN SAYING ANYTHING?
WHY SHOULD I AFTER THAT?

DIDN'T EVEN FKN APOLOGIZE TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IF I TREATED HIM LIKE THAT? WTF?

Anyway, that dude who was asking me if I live alone... 

He was saying that he follows social norms to "get his way."
So I asked him what he meant by saying "his way."
He said, "to get what he wants, he knows how to act around people."

IT SCREAMED MANIPULATOR TO ME.
ALARMS WENT OFF. 

I don't want to make time for that. 

PEOPLE WHO WANT TO GET THEIR WAY
AND CAN AND WILL ACT FAKE TO GET IT....

CAN THEY FKN BE TRUSTED?

TO BE FKN REAL?
TO NOT WANT ANYTHING?
TO NOT TRY TO GET ANYTHING FROM ME?
TO NOT WANT TOO MUCH?

TO NOT TRY TO FKN TRY TO CONTROL ME?

IF SOMEONE WANTS AND WANTS AND WANTS....
THEY'LL WANT CONTROL OVER ME, TOO. FK THAT. 

CONTROL YOURSELF BY ONLY WANTING
REALISTIC FKN THINGS. 

BECAUSE I DO NOT OWE EVERYONE
WHATEVER THEY THINK THEY ARE ENTITLED TO.

DO THEY OWE ME?
ANYTHING I EVER THOUGHT OR COULD THINK I WAS ENTITLED TO?

FK NO. 

WHAT I WAS OWED WAS THE FKN TRUTH, THOUGH. 
JUST THAT. 

FK EVERYTHING ELSE. 
BECAUSE.... JUST FK IT. 

WELL.... LOYALTY, HONESTY, RESPECT... 
CONSIDERATION..... 

BUT WHO CONSIDERS ANYTHING ANYMORE?

ANYONE?

DO THEY CONSIDER:
"IF I ACT LIKE A FKN CREEP, SHE'S GOING TO BE CREEPED OUT."
"SHE DOES NOT WANT TO BE CREEPED OUT."
"SHE DOES NOT WANT TO BE GROSSED OUT."
"SHE WANTS TO BE RESPECTED AND NOT HAVE HER TIME WASTED."

IF YOU ARE TRYING TO HOOK UP WITH ME, JUST FK OFF. 
JUST THAT. 

I AM NOT A PIECE OF @SS. I AM A PERSON.
A PERSON NOBODY KNOWS.
BECAUSE THEY LOOK AT ME LIKE A PIECE OF @SS.

OR WHATEVER ELSE. 

IT MAKES ME NOT WANT TO ENGAGE WITH MANY PEOPLE. 

WHEN I SEE THE FAKE SH*T, I CAN SMELL IT, TOO. 
WHATEVER THAT IS... 

LACK OF CONFIDENCE?
I INTIMIDATE YOU?

I COULD CARE LESS WHAT THEY WANT
BECAUSE WHEN DID THEY EVER CARE ABOUT WHAT I WANTED?

NOT TO BE TREATED LIKE XYZ!!!!!!!!!!! WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE!!!!!!!!!!
RIGHT??????

IF I ACTED LIKE THAT??????????????????????????? IF I DID????????
WHAT WOULD IT LOOK LIKE???????/
TO THEM????
COMING FROM ME????????

11 YEARS SINGLE FOR A REASON. 

HOW HAVE I BEEN TREATED? WELL? OR LIKE SH*T?
FOR EVERYONE ELSE EVERYONE THINKS IS BETTER!!!!!!!
GO AHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHEN THEY DO YOU LIKE I NEVER WOULD HAVE.....
GUESS WHAT? YOU DON'T GET TO COME BACK TO ME!

WHEN YOU REALIZE I NEVER WOULD HAVE XYZ!
WHEN I WARNED YOU ABOUT XYZ!
DID YOU LISTEN? NO?

DON'T GET LOYALTY BACK YOU TOSSED AWAY.

YOU WANT TO ACT LIKE THAT? THEN DO IT WITHOUT ME.
WHY SHOULD I BE SUBJECTED TO THAT?
DID I DO THAT SH*T TO YOU?
WOULD I?
IF NOT, DON'T DO THAT SH*T TO ME. 

I WISH PEOPLE KNEW ME WELL ENOUGH TO KNOW ME. 
HOW TO TALK TO ME AND HOW NOT TO. 

HOW TO TREAT ME AND HOW NOT TO. 

I SHOULD HAVE FKN IGNORED HIM. 
THAT WAS FKN FOUL. 

BEFORE THAT, HE WAS SAYING:
"HOW DO I KNOW YOU'RE A REAL PERSON?"
HE SPOKE TO ME ON THE PHONE ONCE. 

"I SPOKE TO A VOICE ON THE PHONE."

WAS WHAT HE SAID ABOUT SPEAKING TO ME ON THE PHONE FFS.
THAT P*SSED ME OFF AND I STAYED QUIET, 
BECAUSE WHAT POINT IS THERE IN TALKING
IF HE'S NOT SURE IF I'M A REAL FKN PERSON OR NOT... ??? FFS.

AND HE DIDN'T APOLOGIZE FOR TREATING ME LIKE THAT
AND DIDN'T TRY TALKING TO ME, LIKE ASKING ME HOW I AM DOING...
OR ANYTHING LIKE THIS...
JUST INVITED ME TO JOIN A GROUP, I JOINED IT... 
SAID I JOINED IT, 
HE GAVE ME THE THUMBS UP. NOTHING ELSE. 
THEN I GOT THAT FKN PASSIVE FKN AGGRESSIVE MESSAGE TODAY.

I COULD BE JUST LIVING MY LIFE, MINDING MY OWN BUSINESS
AND PEOPLE CAN ACT LIKE THAT
BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T GET SOMETHING THEY WANTED.

HE WANTED MY ATTENTION. 
WASN'T GETTING IT. 

I EXPLAINED WHY. ON TOP OF GETTING MY SITES READY...
AND I GOT THAT MESSAGE AS I WAS GETTING HOME FROM THE FKN DENTIST.
LIKE FK RIGHT OFF.

AM I NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE A LIFE?
WHAT DID HE DO BEFORE HE MET ME?
ACTED LIKE THIS WITH OTHERS?
OR JUST ME?