No Point

Today was a weird day. 
I was coming back from bringing back some empties... 
I saw my neighbor coming out of the building
with the chick he told me he wants "nothing to do with."
"I want to hang out with you."

Instead of going in the front door... 
I tried to sneak around the back. 

He probably saw me walking by.
I was trying not to look his way. 

He came out of the building with her
and they were acting like friends
and sat across the picnic table from her.

So I saw them sit down, and walked around them. 
Didn't say anything. Just kept walking. 

None of my business. 
Really, it's not. 

So nobody can be mad at me
for minding my own business. 

I wasn't going to go up to them and interrupt.
Like she did when she invited herself
to come get coffee with us
when she saw him and I together. 

I saw them together, didn't say anything, 
didn't go up to them and interrupt. 

Just went on about my business. 
So that they can go on about theirs.

BUT IT WAS NONE OF MY BUSINESS
HIS REASONS FOR NOT WANTING ANYTHING TO DO
WITH HER.
OUT OF HIS OWN MOUTH. 

I DIDN'T EVER ASK HIM ABOUT HER. 
HE KEPT TELLING ME
HE DIDN'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH HER

AND TODAY, SAW THEM TOGETHER. 
SITTING DOWN TOGETHER.

I'm only bringing it up because he had told me
he wanted nothing to do with her. 

HE TOLD ME THAT TO MY FACE.
SO WHY DID HE SAY THAT?
WHY DID HE TELL ME THAT?
BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT HE WANTED ME TO THINK?

WHY DID HE WANT ME TO THINK THAT?

THAT'S WHAT BUGS ME.

ALL THE TIME I'VE BEEN GIVING TO HIM.
MY TIME. 

WHEN I COULD HAVE BEEN DOING OTHER THINGS... 

Something else that bothered me is that he asked me when the last time
I had s3x was... What does that matter?

Would he ask any of the guys? No?
Because he doesn't want to know that about them... 
And they'd want to know why he wanted to know... 

I shut it down with "It doesn't matter."

Why should I "kiss and tell"? 

I had a feeling that if I had answered that, 
and if it had been a while... 

Something along those lines may have been suggested
or brought up. 

Fkn uncomfortable enough to even ask me that.

"Oh, it's been YEARS... ?! Don't you miss it?!"
Or something like this. 

It's that cringe factor. Like talking about it with a parent. 
You don't want to talk about it with certain people, right?
It just feels hella cringe. 

I had to shut it down.

He wasn't expecting me to do that. 
He was pretty surprised. 

Why be surprised?
Shouldn't be! I already said "no" 
when he asked me if I wanted to have s3x. I don't. 
No, thanks. 

He told me that a female neighbor has tried coming onto him
and even got jealous of him talking to another female neighbor... 

Because she made comments... 

He also told me that the dude and his girl who moved onto my floor.... 
That that dude approached a female neighbor and suggest 0r@l s3x.

"You look stressed. Why don't you come up and I'll go d0wn on you..."
"No, thanks."

"My girlfriend's into having 3s0m3s..."
"No, thanks."

My neighbor mentioned me to the dude
so he knows my name... 

And he was looking at me weird... 
In the elevator, with his girlfriend. 

I was wondering if she noticed that
and was trying to just get away from them.

I do not want her thinking I'm into her boyfriend... I'm not. 

His vibe was off. Don't like it.

When we were going fishing, my neighbor and I, 
He told me that he approached that female neighbor, like that... 

Just made those gross vibes feel even more gross. 

I'll be mad if my neighbor brings up s3x yet again. 

Because the only reason to is whatever reason he's doing it. 
OTHERWISE THERE ISN'T ANY. 

"NO" SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE END OF IT.
EVEN OUT OF RESPECT. Y'KNOW?

But it wasn't. Or why fkn ask me when the last time I had s3x was?

MAYBE I DON'T WANT TO BE THOUGHT ABOUT, LIKE THAT.

ESPECIALLY AFTER I ALREADY DECLINED. POLITELY. 

WHY KEEP "TRYING"?

"NO" DOESN'T MEAN "KEEP ASKING ME."
IT FKN MEANS "NO." JUST NO.

IT DOESN'T MEAN KEEP BRINGING IT UP
SO YOU CAN ASK ME AGAIN....

IT MEANS: STOP THINKING ABOUT IT
AND NEVER BRING IT UP AGAIN, 
AND NEVER ASK ME AGAIN. 

MY ANSWER IS MY ANSWER.
IT'S NOT GOING TO CHANGE.

If I was the one who asked HIM if HE wanted to have s3x,
AND HE SAID "NO" TO ME....
I WOULD HAVE TO ACCEPT THAT, CORRECT?
AS AN ANSWER.
A COMPLETE SENTENCE. 

AND IT WOULDN'T MATTER IF I WANTED TO
IF HE DIDN'T, CORRECT?

SO HOW WOULD THAT BE DIFFERENT
IF I'M THE ONE SAYING "NO"?

WHY BE THAT SELFISH?
TO PUT SOMEONE ON THE SPOT ABOUT THAT?

Just bugged me that he literally told me he wants nothing to do with her
and today I saw them together like he's hanging out with her, again. 

It doesn't bother me that they are hanging out. 
It just bugged me that he'd tell me that, to my face, 
and yet he IS hanging out with her
or I wouldn't have seen them together.

People saying they "can't stand" someone, even. 
And then I saw them talking to each other.

Like today, I saw M*** out back, walking his dog. 
I said hi to him and then CLACKER yelled at him to WAIT,
threw some dog treats down from his balcony for M***'s dog...

LET ME TELL YOU THIS...

WHEN M*** WAS IN THE HOSPITAL, ALMOST DIED... 
CLACKER WAS GIVEN M***'S KEYS
TO HELP M*** WITH M***'S DOG
AND OTHER STUFF
WHILE HE WAS IN THE HOSPITAL... 

AND WHILE HE WAS IN THE HOSPITAL... 
CLACKER STOLE HIS MONEY,
BROUGHT PEOPLE OVER TO M***'S PLACE...
WHILE HE WAS IN THE HOSPITAL...

AND THREW SOME OF HIS STUFF OFF HIS BALCONY... 

AT FIRST HE TOLD CLACKER "NO!" 
WHEN CLACKER TOLD HIM TO "WAIT!"
SO HE COULD THROW THE DOG TREATS DOWN... 

WHY BOTHER TRYING TO "BE NICE"
AFTER TAKING HIS MONEY?
WHILE HE WAS IN THE HOSPITAL?

BECAUSE HE FEELS BAD? WTF?

I don't care if my neighbor saw me walking by. 
He probably did. 

He probably said something to her about me. 
Don't care. 

Was minding my own business. 
Which I should be allowed to do.

She doesn't. 

I was just going to try to go to sleep. 
I'm tired. Really tired. 

But one thing I'm tired of
IS:

PEOPLE SAYING ONE THING AND DOING ANOTHER. 

IF YOU'RE GOING TO TELL ME
THAT YOU'RE NOT HANGING OUT WITH SOMEONE
AND GO AS FAR AS TO TELL ME WHY... 

WHY INTERACT WITH THEM LIKE YOU'RE STILL INTERACTING?

TWO PEOPLE IN ONE DAY. DOING THAT. 

JUST TWO-FACED. 

"I DON'T LIKE THEM."
THEN I SEE THEM TALKING... 

LIKE MIRROR SMASHER TELLING ME
HE HATED THE B*TCH WHO KEPT TRYING
TO COME AT ME... 

AND THEN HE LET HER COME AT ME... 

AFTER I TOLD HIM HE WAS READING
ALL OF OUR MESSAGES.

LITERALLY READ HIM TELLING ME THAT... 
AND HAD TO "GET BETWEEN US." 

AND HAD HE REALLY HATED HER, 
HOW WOULD THAT HAVE HAD ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME?

SHE WAS THE ONE DOING WHAT SHE DID TO THE GUY. 
SHE CHOSE TO DO THAT.

CHEATING ON A GUY AND THEN TO BE ALL JEALOUS? 
FKN INSANE. 

SHE "NEEDED" TO "SPY" TO KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON...
"BETWEEN HIM AND I"
WHICH WAS NONE OF HER BUSINESS. 

SO EACH TIME HE MADE ANY PLANS WITH ME... 
SHE KNEW ABOUT IT
AND HAD TO "LIGHT A FIRE" FOR HIM TO "PUT OUT"
"FOR HER."
TO MAKE HIM CANCEL ON ME... 

AND THAT WAS THE START OF IT... 
IT KEPT GETTING WORSE. 

AND I KEPT TELLING HIM. 
BUT WOULD HE LISTEN? TO ME? NO.

But to be that jealous... 
OVER HIM AND I JUST TALKING... 

AND HE TOLD ME THAT SHE GETS JEALOUS... 
SO HE KNOWS. 

AND SHOULD HAVE KNOWN SHE WAS DOING SH*T
OUT OF JEALOUSY. 

AND I TOLD HIM HE WOULD LASH OUT AT HIM. 
SHE WAS TRYING TO LASH OUT AT ME. 

I ONLY "SPOKE TO HER" ONCE. 
AFTER HER COMING AT ME.
AFTER I KICKED HIM OUT.
WHICH I HAD EVERY FKN RIGHT TO DO.

I TOLD HER NOT TO FKN PLAY WITH ME, EITHER.
THEN I BLOCKED HER NUMBER SO SHE COULDN'T 
TEXT ME AGAIN. 

NOTHING BETWEEN HIM AND I WAS EVER ANY OF HER BUSINESS. 

AND IF IT WASN'T FOR HIM RUINING IT HIMSELF, 
SHE WOULD HAVE RUINED IT, HERSELF. 

AND THEM BOTH TRYING TO BLAME ME?

IF HE EVER LEFT HER, IT'D BE HER OWN DAMN FAULT. 
BECAUSE HE DIDN'T WANT TO BE WITH HER
PUTTING UP WITH HER SH*T ANYMORE.

HIS CHOICE. NOT HERS.

Having to put up with his sh*t AND her sh*t?
WHY TF WOULD I FKN WANT TO?!

THEY CAN BE IMMATURE TOGETHER.
MISERABLE TOGETHER. 

WHY SHOULD I CARE?

BUT IF HE'D JUST SEEN WHAT I WAS SAYING... 
AND WHY... 

MAYBE HE WOULDN'T HAVE ALLOWED THAT SH*T. 

SHE'S USED HIM FOR YEARS. HE LET HER. IT'S GROSS. 
SO WHY SHOULD I CARE?

IF HE'S STILL GOING TO ALLOW THAT SH*T... 
AND BE A SH*T... 

NO POINT, FOR ME.