He Can't Say He Didn't

One of the guys who lives in my building got arrested today.
Someone told me.

The guy slammed his dog against the elevator doors.
Wtf! Not a big dog. Probably hurt her.

It was caught on camera so he can't say he didn't do it.

He'll probably get time for that sh*t and I hope he does.
Also, I hope he's not allowed to have any more pets.

I don't know how the dog is or anything. 
But his gf probably has her. I dunno.
That's fked, though.

The guy who told me... He said the guy's fked off his meds... 

He'd said she got hit by a car, twice.
Makes me wonder if he was just saying that or if she actually did.

The neighbor I wrote the poems for, and put them in his mailbox...
I was told that it's actually his brother's place
and that he stays here from time to time, helping his brother out.

So I was putting poems in his brother's mailbox. Whoops.

Anyway, that guy's gone from here, now.

Animal @bus3 is taken seriously, at least.
And he's been arrested. Today.

He's acted weird with me, before.

He was selling weed and he had a thing...
1 for free or 2 for $10 (joints).

And there were a couple of times he offered me a joint
when I was already high and I was trying to say no.

That I was "good."
But he seemed almost mad that I didn't want 
to take a FREE joint from him. 

Why get mad about that?

What could a dog have done...?

Even if the dog wasn't "complying" with a "command"
THAT'S NO EXCUSE TO DO WHAT HE DID.

Another thing that's been on my mind is that
woman who was k!lled on the train recently.

She was an advocate for "black lives matter."

Just kind of ironic that a black guy k!lled her.

People were saying that if the races were reversed....

Because 5 black people besides him were on the train, 
and they didn't do anything to try to help her.

The bystander effect is real. 

There'd be riots in the streets.
Like when that cop k!lled Floyd.
Isn't that when "black lives matter" started?

Black lives still and will always matter.
I'm not trying to make it into a race thing.

In my mind, it could have been anyone.

He said he did it because he thought she was reading his mind.

So had he thought someone else was reading his mind, 
he could have k!lled someone else.

It wasn't that he wanted to k!ll her specifically...
It wasn't planned.

And not trying to justify it.
I'm just saying that had someone else sat there,
they might have been k!lled, too.

And then someone was saying that he said
"I got that white girl." 

And someone who stated that HE SAID THAT
GOT CALLED RACIST
FOR SAYING THAT HE SAID THAT!

I've been watching some videos...
Poland actually k!lls 'illegal immigrants.'

They said that if people want to come legally, 
they are welcome. 

But if they're trying to just "show up there", they aren't.

Even when they were told they'd have to PAY per immigrant
they turned away.

Said they'd rather pay than just let them in.

The UK has riots. 

If Canada had another rally about immigration...
ILLEGAL IMMIGRATION...

WE'D SEE WHAT HAPPENED 
DURING THE TRUCKER RALLY, HERE.

When that boat of illegal immigrants showed up, we took them in.

Just freaking showed up! Expecting to just be let in.

Anyone trying to get into their countries, would be k!lled.
They don't discriminate.

I think that if it's a family with KIDS, okay.
BUT IF ANYONE IN THAT FAMILY FKS UP...
THEN THEY ALL SHOULD GO BACK.

MIGHT BE SOME PRESSURE TO FKN ASSILIMATE. 

BECAUSE ONE PERSON FKING UP
COULD GET THEM ALL DEPORTED. 

That's the way it should be. 

Wouldn't be 'fair' to the ones who didn't fk up,
but it would hopefully get them to fkn act right
IF THEY WANT TO BE AND STAY HERE.

But did you see what's going on in LONDON?
In FRANCE?

And they're going to London from France!!!!

Brits are p*ssed that the government
is putting up illegal immigrants in hotels.

WTF DO YOU THINK THEY ARE DOING HERE?
THEY DO THAT HERE.

LOTS OF PEOPLE HERE ARE P*SSED, TOO. 

CANADIAN CITIZENS FREAKING HOMELESS, 
BUT LET'S SHELTER THE IMMGRANTS FIRST AND FOREMOST?

Anyway, I'm not trying to come off as racist.
It's just a lot of cultural issues.

AND CULTURAL ISSUES ARE NO EXCUSE
TO COME TO A COUNTRY AND ACT LIKE
YOU'RE FKN ENTITLED TO EVERYTHING.

That's what my issue is.

The "potential host country" owes you fk all.
Not a place in their country "just because you want it."

The way they act at the border trying to get in
IS EXACTLY HOW THEY'D ACT 
IF THEY WERE LET IN.

LOOK AT HOW THEY ARE ACTING IN FRANCE!
THEN THEY TRY GOING OVER TO LONDON!

YOU THINK THE PEOPLE OF LONDON
WANT THAT SH*T?

WELL, NEITHER DO THE PEOPLE OF POLAND.
OR THE PEOPLE OF CANADA.

WE'VE "PUT UP WITH SH*T" WE NEVER SHOULD HAVE HAD TO.
IN CANADA.

WE LITERALLY LET PEOPLE COME HERE, 
And look how they've been acting!!!!

LIKE THEY HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO DO
WHATEVER TF THEY WANT! 

THEY FKN DON'T.

NOT IN CANADA, NOT IN POLAND, NOT IN THE UK.

YET HERE WE ARE.

AND THEY SEEM OFFENDED THAT NO TF YOU CAN'T
JUST DO XYZ BECAUSE YOU FKN FEEL LIKE IT!

WE HAVE OUR CULTURES, TOO.

YOU THINK A CANADIAN IMMIGRATING TO ANOTHER COUNTRY...
IF THEY BROUGHT THEIR CULTURE, 
THEY'D BE THINKING:

HEY! WE HAVE OUR CULTURE HERE!

ASSIMILATE OR FK OFF.

AND I'M NOT BEING RACIST SAYING IT.
JUST SIMPLY PUT.

Not saying you have to love hockey and drink beer
to be a fkn Canadian...

But certain BS should be left at the fkn door when you come here.

CERTAIN SH*T THAT ISN'T FKN OKAY HERE.

Probably isn't okay over there, either.

Fix your own country's issues.
Instead of bringing those issues to other countries...

But, tragedy to come to another country
AND EMBRACE IT...

ONLY TO GET ST@BBED ON A PUBLIC TRAIN FFS.

I get that a lot of people try to go to other countries
for a "better life."

In that case, LEAVE ALL THE FKN BS BEHIND.

But it's like some sh*t gets indoctrinated into them, 
and they bring it wherever they go...

DON'T BRING THAT SH*T HERE.
IT'S NOT WANTED OR NEEDED.

OR APPRECIATED.

I get that mental illness is a thing, though.

I think a lot of it is spiritual illness. 
Not just "mental."

Because that affects the mental... But I digress...

I live in a building with people who have mental issues.
A lot of it is exacerbated by add1ct10ns...
Drugs, alcoholism, etc.

Somehow, we were given picnic tables and a bbq
for the front of the building...

And two people complained about it...

EVEN THOUGH THEY'VE BEEN OUT THERE, 
WITH US. SAID NOTHING TO US.
BUT WENT AND COMPLAINED.

BECAUSE THEY HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO.

THAN TRY TO RUIN SOMETHING
THAT OTHER PEOPLE ENJOY.

Housing wants us to sit in the back "yard."

Most people don't want to sit out there. 

In the front, we can see what's going on. 
In the back, nothing to see.

In the front, we can see if they are putting treats in the "shack."
Or if the cops are here. AND who the cops are taking out of here.

My neighbor likes to go fishing as much as possible. 
He doesn't like being here or around here.

I meant the building in general. He visits me, here.

We just sit on the balcony. Smoking. Toking. Talking. 

He called me his "best friend."

He still does that stupid sh*t like wanting to hug me or touch me.
Like touching my arms. 

Calling me "sweet pea" and sh*t like that. It bugs me.

I'm not his gf so why keep trying or doing that sh*t?

I don't want to be with the guy "like that."
I don't see him "like that."

I've tried to be "polite" about it.
But he wouldn't stop and hasn't 100%.

He just doesn't try as often. As he did.
Bugged me that he did.

WOULDN'T IT MAKE SENSE
THAT I WOULDN'T WANT ANYTHING 'ROMANTIC'
OR S3XU@AL WITH SOMEONE
WHO'S OLD ENOUGH TO BE MY FATHER?

MAYBE I'M NOT ATTRACTED TO SENIORS.

Guys my age.... I've met a lot of toxic ones.

I've met a lot of immature males who turn me off.

Can I help that immaturity turns me off?

Doesn't immaturity turn you off?

Wouldn't it turn most people off?

Why? You know why!

Bugs me a lot of people "can't see what they had until it's gone."

Like push me away, if that's what you want to do...
BUT WHILE I'M AWAY...
WHY FEEL BAD FOR YOURSELF?

BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO?
COULD HAVE CHOSEN NOT TO?

COULD HAVE... RIGHT?

SO YOU CAN'T BE MAD AT ME
WHEN YOU COULD HAVE CHOSEN NOT TO!

HAD THAT CHOICE. 

AND CHOICES GET TAKEN AWAY.

LIKE I'M NOT A "CHOICE" ANYMORE.
BECAUSE WHY? I'M NOT "AROUND" ANYMORE.

WHY IS THAT, THOUGH?

WHAT ARE MY REASONS?

SAME REASONS OTHERS WOULD WALK AWAY, TOO?

I CAN BE COLD, TOO.

I COULD PLAY GAMES, TOO, BUT WHY WOULD I?
JUST TO BE IMMATURE?!

JUST TO "HURT" SOMEONE?

JUST TO FK WITH THEIR HEAD AND THEIR "TRUST"?

JUST TO "GET" OR "HAVE" SOMETHING
SO NOBODY ELSE COULD?

JUST TO BE ALL ABOUT WHATEVER IT WAS
I WAS TRYING TO "GET" OR "HAVE"?

Anyway, it just bugs me. A lot of things, lately. 

I woke up too early today. I need some more rest.