The Three Fates

I use a site for tarot sometimes.
I chose the three fates this time. They aren't the best,
but I think they are accurate for the situation I'm thinking of:

1) Important element of the past:
Lack of restraint and self-control.
Losing one's cool. Energies dispersed through conflicts
in personal, business, and spiritual matters.

2) Deciding element of the present:
Discomfort with the worlds of mind and matter.
Leading to a retreat to the spiritual. 
The embrace of negative relationships,
driven by the fear of being alone.
Devotion to fantasies and daydreams,
to the exclusion of practical skills or the pursuit of knowledge.
Insecurity leading to dishonor, vice,
and undue susceptibility to outside influences.

3) Critical element of the future:
The refusal to let go of the past.
Resistance to change because of fear.

I've had and still have a lot of conflicts in these areas.
Due to lack of restraint and self control.
I have been prone to losing my cool.

I've had a lot of mental turmoil lately.
Retreating to the spiritual has been my escape.
I've jumped into nagative relationships
and mostly because I still don't want to be alone.
Fantasies and daydreams have pulled me away from my pursuit of knowledge.
And my development of practical skills (my path).
Insecurity has and can lead to susceptibility.

I have been holding onto the past and fearing change, also.
Afraid to lose people all over again.

But I know that certain people are not able to walk through certain doors with me.
I have my doors and they have theirs.
Sometimes they can hold the door open for me
so that I can walk through it,
which is ironic because the last time I saw someone,
they held the door open for me.
He did not come with me and I haven't seen him since.

Sometiimes people's paths lead in two different directions,
but we can still want what is best for them.
We can still love them and care about them
while doing what we have to do.