I'm thinking it will be okay. Things get better and better.
"No investment in the outcome means no contradiction."
Something about resistance... When we stop doing the thing that we do
that prevents us from feeling good...
"It's like we release the cork and let it float back to the surface."
Taking my flip book with me each day now.
I filled it with quotes and things for over a year.
When I'm focusing on one thing,
I'm not focusing on the things that I'm using to hold my cork underwater.
Like feeling like crap because the outcomes I wanted
are not forthcoming. They aren't because I don't feel good about the fact
that none of them have happened, yet.
When I stop doing that, maybe something will happen.
Close to what I wanted in the first place.
And it doesn't have to be exactly what I wanted,
I'd settle for 'close enough.'
Because that's so much closer than I am and have been....
BUT I get to choose to change what I want...
Say I decided to say "Screw all the external stuff for the rest of the year."
Which I'm really tempted to do and I probably will.
"Screw the hot and cold sh*t. Don't need it. Either in or out."
Say I decided that I'm going to focus on just feeling better
about myself, and my life in general, exactly where I'm at now.
Without any of the people who apparently don't want to be in my life.
Without wondering why they don't. Without even caring at all. About any of it.
Without caring what they think. Either way.
Without caring what they do or don't do.
Without caring about what I don't have.
Just feeling better because I can and focusing on that.
Knowing that it is essential to my inner peace.
And my external peace is determined by my internal peace.
One mirrors the other, one reflects the other.
We don't find internal peace from external peace.
I used to think that when everything was alright with the world,
then I'd have reasons to feel good.
Because I've been conditioned to believe that conditions would condition me.
And that's what most people think and believe.
But then why are they so unhappy? Why are they not at peace with themselves?
Because they keep chasing conditions and relying on their conditioning.
And I know this, but I keep going back to my old ways!
Because I haven't established any new ways.
I keep going back to what I know, too well.
And not learning what I don't know very well.
Even though I have a chance to learn it.
Now that I have a foot in both worlds.
"You've learned that being positive and having faith
are necessary tools to overcome fear or disappointments."
"You can only take charge of this present moment."
So I can do something about this moment and the next.
One moment at a time.
"No investment in the outcome means no contradiction."
Something about resistance... When we stop doing the thing that we do
that prevents us from feeling good...
"It's like we release the cork and let it float back to the surface."
Taking my flip book with me each day now.
I filled it with quotes and things for over a year.
When I'm focusing on one thing,
I'm not focusing on the things that I'm using to hold my cork underwater.
Like feeling like crap because the outcomes I wanted
are not forthcoming. They aren't because I don't feel good about the fact
that none of them have happened, yet.
When I stop doing that, maybe something will happen.
Close to what I wanted in the first place.
And it doesn't have to be exactly what I wanted,
I'd settle for 'close enough.'
Because that's so much closer than I am and have been....
BUT I get to choose to change what I want...
Say I decided to say "Screw all the external stuff for the rest of the year."
Which I'm really tempted to do and I probably will.
"Screw the hot and cold sh*t. Don't need it. Either in or out."
Say I decided that I'm going to focus on just feeling better
about myself, and my life in general, exactly where I'm at now.
Without any of the people who apparently don't want to be in my life.
Without wondering why they don't. Without even caring at all. About any of it.
Without caring what they think. Either way.
Without caring what they do or don't do.
Without caring about what I don't have.
Just feeling better because I can and focusing on that.
Knowing that it is essential to my inner peace.
And my external peace is determined by my internal peace.
One mirrors the other, one reflects the other.
We don't find internal peace from external peace.
I used to think that when everything was alright with the world,
then I'd have reasons to feel good.
Because I've been conditioned to believe that conditions would condition me.
And that's what most people think and believe.
But then why are they so unhappy? Why are they not at peace with themselves?
Because they keep chasing conditions and relying on their conditioning.
And I know this, but I keep going back to my old ways!
Because I haven't established any new ways.
I keep going back to what I know, too well.
And not learning what I don't know very well.
Even though I have a chance to learn it.
Now that I have a foot in both worlds.
"You've learned that being positive and having faith
are necessary tools to overcome fear or disappointments."
"You can only take charge of this present moment."
So I can do something about this moment and the next.
One moment at a time.
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