I had a hard time, still do sometimes, not taking things personally.
I get that people have problems. They are their problems
and have little to do with me unless they affect me.
Yes, I would like some people, most people, to wake up.
Yes, I would like people to want to change and stop making excuses.
Yes, I want to stop being affected by their stuff.
But I have no control over 2/3 of those things.
I can stop being affected by not taking it personally.
Which can be hard to do.
But I have to leave myself out of it.
I let them keep making their excuses. I keep letting them snub me.
If they want their bullsh*t that bad, they can have it.
I don't have to wait for anyone to decide to wake up.
I don't have to wait for anyone to realize that I have some value.
I don't have to feel bad that they don't seem to want to be around me.
It's probably for the best, right?
Lots of thoughts are coming fast at me right now.
They aren't positive and they are mostly judgmental.
That's the old line of thinking coming back. It takes over.
Because I can't think two different ways at the same time.
I want my thoughts to come from a better place.
Sometimes I even try to justify thinking this way.
Which is another habit that I don't need.
Like I'm trying to defend my own thoughts,
thoughts that I don't even want to keep thinking.
"It's no measure of health to be well adjusted
to a profoundly sick society."
- J. Krishnamuti
I've known for a while now that I'm supposed to be readjusting.
But I keep pulling myself away from it
every time I get into the traps of thinking these thoughts.
Every time I get so disappointed that I want to
go as far as blaming someone for not knowing any better.
Instead of just appreciating the facts,
that they just are where they are at. At this time.
They might stay there, they might change,
but I can't want that for them anymore.
And I can't want the to change so that I can stop being affected
by their mentality, their excuses, their issues.
The truth is, I'm still being affected by my own issues.
Yes, I want my happily ever after, still.
I want my good times and I want to share those.
I still want lots of things, but I have to focus on some things.
I get that people have problems. They are their problems
and have little to do with me unless they affect me.
Yes, I would like some people, most people, to wake up.
Yes, I would like people to want to change and stop making excuses.
Yes, I want to stop being affected by their stuff.
But I have no control over 2/3 of those things.
I can stop being affected by not taking it personally.
Which can be hard to do.
But I have to leave myself out of it.
I let them keep making their excuses. I keep letting them snub me.
If they want their bullsh*t that bad, they can have it.
I don't have to wait for anyone to decide to wake up.
I don't have to wait for anyone to realize that I have some value.
I don't have to feel bad that they don't seem to want to be around me.
It's probably for the best, right?
Lots of thoughts are coming fast at me right now.
They aren't positive and they are mostly judgmental.
That's the old line of thinking coming back. It takes over.
Because I can't think two different ways at the same time.
I want my thoughts to come from a better place.
Sometimes I even try to justify thinking this way.
Which is another habit that I don't need.
Like I'm trying to defend my own thoughts,
thoughts that I don't even want to keep thinking.
"It's no measure of health to be well adjusted
to a profoundly sick society."
- J. Krishnamuti
I've known for a while now that I'm supposed to be readjusting.
But I keep pulling myself away from it
every time I get into the traps of thinking these thoughts.
Every time I get so disappointed that I want to
go as far as blaming someone for not knowing any better.
Instead of just appreciating the facts,
that they just are where they are at. At this time.
They might stay there, they might change,
but I can't want that for them anymore.
And I can't want the to change so that I can stop being affected
by their mentality, their excuses, their issues.
The truth is, I'm still being affected by my own issues.
Yes, I want my happily ever after, still.
I want my good times and I want to share those.
I still want lots of things, but I have to focus on some things.
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