So I went to see my doctor today....
She was saying that the pain in my neck was some muscle tension.
I know damn well it is one area and it's not a muscle.
She was telling me that one muscle on one side of my neck
is bigger than the muscle on the other side of my neck.
Causing a kink in my neck. I know that it's more than a kink in my neck.
I know when it's literally pulling a muscle or whatever.
Then she said she hasn't gotten my test results from my EEG yet.
She told me that I was supposed to tell them to send them to her.
They told me they were going to send them to her.
She has to request the results now because she didn't do that.
Tried making it look like I didn't do something that I was supposed to do
when nobody told me I had to tell them to send them to my doctor.
It's stupid because she was the one who ordered the test.
So why wouldn't they send the results to her?
And she apparently ordered another test for me, and didn't tell me.
So I didn't know about it and didn't have it done.
So she's going to order it again. A scan of my head.
So I can finally see if there's damage in that spot.
Anyway, I'm still not very fond of her.
Like she could have told me about that test.
I don't know why she didn't. "Oh the hospital will call her."
I did get a call from the hospital but I missed it
and had no idea who was calling me or for what.
I told her why I don't go see her often. Because every time I do,
I leave there feeling frustrated. She doesn't listen.
Like it would have been nice to know about this test.
So that I could have already had it etc.
And nice to know that I had to request the results to be sent to her apparently.
Instead of waiting since August with no results yet. WTF!
Also I brought up the fact that my blood pressure keeps dropping.
And when they checked it, they said it was low.
It's usually around 120. Today it was at 105.
And when it gets to 100 and below, that's when people feel dizzy and stuff.
Been getting chest pains and I feel that my heart beats faster
probably because my blood pressure keeps dropping.
Why? All she said was that I was dehydrated.
What if I have a blocked artery? What if I have a blood clot?
None of those other explanations seemed to come to mind.
There's a reason I want to get my heart checked.
I don't want to end up having a heart attack before I'm 40.
My ex did. He was 38 or 39 and almost died from a heart attack.
Plus all those times I had no food to eat, the muscles like the heart and the brain
get attacked when there's no protein to consume. The body attacks the muscles.
Anyway, this is what pisses me off.
She knows my blood pressure is low and drops off, and I do pass out.
Why the f*ck does that happen? It's not "drink more water."
There's obviously something going on here.
There are tests I need that she obviously has a hard time ordering
or even telling me that she has ordered.
How hard is it to say: "By the way, I ordered a scan for you.
Call this number and ask them if they have an appointment for you."
Which she did today, but she couldn't f*cking do that last year?!
And she acts all surprised that I don't go see her more often....
The last time was when she asked me if I enjoyed being depressed...
I wonder if she enjoys being ignorant....
But yeah... This is why I don't go to see her very often.
She has no f*cking clue as to what she's doing. At all.
She's better at prescribing stuff than anything,
but I don't need her for that. I need tests, results, proper tests.
I need to know what is going on with my heart. It's important.
My health isn't important to her because it's mine, not hers.
Every time I go see her, I'm upset for days afterwards.
This is why I don't go often.
I'm getting things looked at that should have been looked at long ago.
But I went there to get a referal to the heart place downstairs.
Which I didn't get. Because she wasn't listening.
When I told her my blood pressure keep dropping.
When I'm in the kitchen, I can't be passing out.
I can't be fainting in there. I won't be able to finish the program if I do.
So even if I'm in distress, I can't show it.
I have to push through until I absolutely can't.
105 is the lowest I've seen my blood pressure.
They said it is in the 'normal range,' but it's low.
There's some more stuff I want to write about, so I'll be writing soon.
She was saying that the pain in my neck was some muscle tension.
I know damn well it is one area and it's not a muscle.
She was telling me that one muscle on one side of my neck
is bigger than the muscle on the other side of my neck.
Causing a kink in my neck. I know that it's more than a kink in my neck.
I know when it's literally pulling a muscle or whatever.
Then she said she hasn't gotten my test results from my EEG yet.
She told me that I was supposed to tell them to send them to her.
They told me they were going to send them to her.
She has to request the results now because she didn't do that.
Tried making it look like I didn't do something that I was supposed to do
when nobody told me I had to tell them to send them to my doctor.
It's stupid because she was the one who ordered the test.
So why wouldn't they send the results to her?
And she apparently ordered another test for me, and didn't tell me.
So I didn't know about it and didn't have it done.
So she's going to order it again. A scan of my head.
So I can finally see if there's damage in that spot.
Anyway, I'm still not very fond of her.
Like she could have told me about that test.
I don't know why she didn't. "Oh the hospital will call her."
I did get a call from the hospital but I missed it
and had no idea who was calling me or for what.
I told her why I don't go see her often. Because every time I do,
I leave there feeling frustrated. She doesn't listen.
Like it would have been nice to know about this test.
So that I could have already had it etc.
And nice to know that I had to request the results to be sent to her apparently.
Instead of waiting since August with no results yet. WTF!
Also I brought up the fact that my blood pressure keeps dropping.
And when they checked it, they said it was low.
It's usually around 120. Today it was at 105.
And when it gets to 100 and below, that's when people feel dizzy and stuff.
Been getting chest pains and I feel that my heart beats faster
probably because my blood pressure keeps dropping.
Why? All she said was that I was dehydrated.
What if I have a blocked artery? What if I have a blood clot?
None of those other explanations seemed to come to mind.
There's a reason I want to get my heart checked.
I don't want to end up having a heart attack before I'm 40.
My ex did. He was 38 or 39 and almost died from a heart attack.
Plus all those times I had no food to eat, the muscles like the heart and the brain
get attacked when there's no protein to consume. The body attacks the muscles.
Anyway, this is what pisses me off.
She knows my blood pressure is low and drops off, and I do pass out.
Why the f*ck does that happen? It's not "drink more water."
There's obviously something going on here.
There are tests I need that she obviously has a hard time ordering
or even telling me that she has ordered.
How hard is it to say: "By the way, I ordered a scan for you.
Call this number and ask them if they have an appointment for you."
Which she did today, but she couldn't f*cking do that last year?!
And she acts all surprised that I don't go see her more often....
The last time was when she asked me if I enjoyed being depressed...
I wonder if she enjoys being ignorant....
But yeah... This is why I don't go to see her very often.
She has no f*cking clue as to what she's doing. At all.
She's better at prescribing stuff than anything,
but I don't need her for that. I need tests, results, proper tests.
I need to know what is going on with my heart. It's important.
My health isn't important to her because it's mine, not hers.
Every time I go see her, I'm upset for days afterwards.
This is why I don't go often.
I'm getting things looked at that should have been looked at long ago.
But I went there to get a referal to the heart place downstairs.
Which I didn't get. Because she wasn't listening.
When I told her my blood pressure keep dropping.
When I'm in the kitchen, I can't be passing out.
I can't be fainting in there. I won't be able to finish the program if I do.
So even if I'm in distress, I can't show it.
I have to push through until I absolutely can't.
105 is the lowest I've seen my blood pressure.
They said it is in the 'normal range,' but it's low.
There's some more stuff I want to write about, so I'll be writing soon.
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