Filters

Was talking to someone about 'fluff' recently.
How there's something to pretty much everything,
minus the fluff. Gotta filter through it. I mentioned this before,
about AA and how there's a lot of religious stuff in it.
I just took what I needed from it and just left the rest.
A lot of people I know won't go to AA just because of the religious stuff.
I was kind of apprehensive about it, but I know I can filter stuff.

I did that with a lot of my books. Filtering out the filler.
There's a lot of good stuff in the books I have,
but it's only certain parts that I want to take the info from
to use it for myself... So I have a notebook that I put quotes in
and certain specific information in. I use it as a 'flip book.'
I flip randomly to random pages and whatever is on that page
is something for me to think about. Kind of like pulling a card.

I had a disturbing dream last night.
It was a flying dream which was the fun part.
The other part bothered me.
There was a house I was living in and it was attached to some other place.
There were three men in my kitchen. I don't know who there were.
One guy, I was starting to trust him.
I left him alone with the other two to go get something.
Then one of the guys left for a while.
So these two guys were alone together and one guy
drowned the other guy in the sink.
When the other guy came back, I was trying to get him to help me tie him up.
So that he couldn't hurt either of us. I woke up scared.
It's rare that I'm scared from my dreams.

I'm tired and I need a nap, though. Almost passed out in the kitchen today.
I was feeling weak and feeling like I needed air,
and felt like my blood pressure was dropping.
They sent me downstairs to sit down and got me water.
But I need to nap. I still feel kind of sick.

They said the color in my face was returning.
I guess I turn all white in the face when my blood pressure drops.

I'll write more in a little while.
I was going somewhere with this, but I lost my train of thought. It happens.