Apparent Duality

"The difficult is born of the easy.
The high is defined by the low.
Before and After go along with each other."

This has been something that's been bothering me.
The concept of duality. "If it's not this... Then it's that..."
Wanting my life to be the other way around in so many ways.
Not that I really want to be popular.
Just a few good friends to spend time with and talk with. That's all.
Just feels like my life is full of acquaintances. It's strange.
Not really close to anyone anymore.
It does take time to become close to someone
and most people won't let you 'in' to their world.

It's strange. Some things.

I've been resisting my own resistance.
Instead of telling myself that it's okay.
I don't have to 'like' or 'want' everything.
It's like I've been arguing for and against my own arguments.
Which is typical of me. I can kind of laugh at it.
But only when I can step outside of it.
It's not so funny when I'm stuck in it and it is affecting me.

Today, I was playing with the cards I bought in Niagara Falls.
They are Lexicon Cards from 1933 and they are in great shape.
I ended up spelling out the name Lee,
and then a lady came and sat beside me with her book and coffee.
She asked about the cards.
We talked a bit about her departed husband.
How he passed away from a tumor he got from second-hand smoke.
I had to go, but I introduced myself before I left.
As it would have it, her name is Lee.
I don't know if it is spelled the same way,
would be kind of strange and even magical, if it is.
She was born in 1932.

Anyway, it was a neat experience.

The point of duality is that not one things doesn't have an opposite.
Opposites make me think about opposition.
And it just makes me think of resistance.