In The Forefront

Lots of stuff on my mind today. Primarily this meeting today.
I'm excited, but at the same time I have no idea what to expect.
It's not every day I get a business meeting. With a business owner.
I keep telling myself:
"Something good is going to happen, I can't wait to see what it is!"
To keep me feeling good about it,
to help me stay optimistic. It can't hurt.
"It's going to be great." Stuff like this.

There's a couple of things I want to bring up.
Last night I was asked for my resume, but I don't have my volunteer work on it.
Plus, I'm going to tell the business owner
that we get donations from a cupcake place and a hotel,
so if they wanted to donate pasteries instead of throwing them out,
I could put them in touch with someone where I volunteer.
The really fancy cupcakes and stuff, end up going to the hospice.
Pasteries only have a certain shelf life.
And if they can be given to someone who is at the end of their life,
then it is a win-win situation.

The other is about something I've wanted to do for a long time,
but it's not the time to bring it up, yet.
I want them to get to know me before I bring that up.

I'm having a busy week so far.
I don't usually have something on almost every day.
There's the meeting today, helping a friend tomorrow,
and Wednesday is back to the dentist.
It will be a good week and it is off to a great start so far.

Have so much at the forefront of my mind.
These opportunities and this upcoming trip,
plus this growth stuff... It's a lot, but it is nice.
When I don't have a lot going on, it doesn't feel good to me.
I don't know why. Probably because I want to expect more.
Out of life and from myself.
I'm content when there's stuff going on.
Stuff to be excited about. Etc.

Instead of my mind getting stuck on certain things.
Because I have the tendancy to do that.
This is why reading has been helping me a lot.
And I'm almost finished this chapter.

I know that all I need is one chance to help me get started in the right direction.
I might get that change very soon. Even sooner than I think.
Thinking things like this feels a lot better than thinking I will never get it.
Looking at things optimistically does actually help.
I couldn't see that it did because I was having issues
with looking at things optimistically. It's something that people get better at.
It's not something that we can just switch to like flicking a switch.
It's a process or a gradual transition just like any other change.

My life can change, for the better. It can.
Nothing has to stay the same. Not my stance, not my position,
not my views, not my feelings, not my circumstances, not my finances,
not my beliefs, not any of it.
The rest of my life can be really great.
The sun is shining today, that looks like a great indication of what's to come.