I've got a feeling that next year is going to be very good. Overall.
However, I have some erratic energy going on.
Maybe left over from this year. Maybe the uncertainty of next year,
but it's not an anxious uncertainty like usual. Hard to explain.
I have a feeling that it's going to be a pivotal year.
Setting things up for the big 2020.
It's more like opportunities to set things up.
They don't just fall into place by themselves. There's a lot of work ahead.
But it will be good because the results are good results.
The benefits are good. It's all for the best.
Even the journey to get there from here.
As hard as it is. But we make it harder when we resist it.
I know that we do, I've been doing it. For a long time.
Been thinking a lot tonight about a few different things.
Wondering why things are happening the way that they are.
I know they are meant to, but I know there's a purpose behind everything.
Things aren't making sense, but do they ever?
Maybe in hindsight. Even then... It's hard to decipher it.
I just feel kind of anxious tonight. I feel like a lot is about to happen.
Like as soon as the new year starts... It'll be like an explosion of energy.
Not in a bad way, just things will be happening fast.
Things have slowed down for a while. The last few months...
Things speed up, then implode, then get slow, then explode.
Well it seems that way, anyway.
Maybe they won't implode this time. Maybe they'll work out.
Maybe there are a lot of maybes.
But I'm on my path for a reason. Back on it.
I've veered off it before. Many times. I had to find my way back.
Maybe the energy feels weird and intense because I'm close
to a really big change in my life.
Maybe a really big door is about to open for me.
One that I wanted to open for a really long time.
I've wanted to network for a while. Make some connections.
I've wanted to get ahead and I think I can.
Which is way better than thinking that I can't. I've had my doubts.
There are things that need to change inside.
My wounds need to heal. Have to get some things straightened out.
So things will be changing. Even good changes can be scary.
Because it's all unfamiliar. Feels weird.
"When the student is ready, the teacher will appear."
-Buddha
I have this chance to learn all about computer networking.
And I think this will be good for me.
Even if this other stuff doesn't work out, there are lots of options opening up.
In lots of areas in my life. Not just this stuff.
But I get to decide what doors open and when
because some doors I can keep closed, if I choose.
Either way, I think things will work out in the end.
It just feels extremely intense tonight. I felt this way before.
I can't do anything about it right now. I have to try to relax.
However, I have some erratic energy going on.
Maybe left over from this year. Maybe the uncertainty of next year,
but it's not an anxious uncertainty like usual. Hard to explain.
I have a feeling that it's going to be a pivotal year.
Setting things up for the big 2020.
It's more like opportunities to set things up.
They don't just fall into place by themselves. There's a lot of work ahead.
But it will be good because the results are good results.
The benefits are good. It's all for the best.
Even the journey to get there from here.
As hard as it is. But we make it harder when we resist it.
I know that we do, I've been doing it. For a long time.
Been thinking a lot tonight about a few different things.
Wondering why things are happening the way that they are.
I know they are meant to, but I know there's a purpose behind everything.
Things aren't making sense, but do they ever?
Maybe in hindsight. Even then... It's hard to decipher it.
I just feel kind of anxious tonight. I feel like a lot is about to happen.
Like as soon as the new year starts... It'll be like an explosion of energy.
Not in a bad way, just things will be happening fast.
Things have slowed down for a while. The last few months...
Things speed up, then implode, then get slow, then explode.
Well it seems that way, anyway.
Maybe they won't implode this time. Maybe they'll work out.
Maybe there are a lot of maybes.
But I'm on my path for a reason. Back on it.
I've veered off it before. Many times. I had to find my way back.
Maybe the energy feels weird and intense because I'm close
to a really big change in my life.
Maybe a really big door is about to open for me.
One that I wanted to open for a really long time.
I've wanted to network for a while. Make some connections.
I've wanted to get ahead and I think I can.
Which is way better than thinking that I can't. I've had my doubts.
There are things that need to change inside.
My wounds need to heal. Have to get some things straightened out.
So things will be changing. Even good changes can be scary.
Because it's all unfamiliar. Feels weird.
"When the student is ready, the teacher will appear."
-Buddha
I have this chance to learn all about computer networking.
And I think this will be good for me.
Even if this other stuff doesn't work out, there are lots of options opening up.
In lots of areas in my life. Not just this stuff.
But I get to decide what doors open and when
because some doors I can keep closed, if I choose.
Either way, I think things will work out in the end.
It just feels extremely intense tonight. I felt this way before.
I can't do anything about it right now. I have to try to relax.
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