Next year feels so close, but seems like it's taking a while to get here.
The last couple weeks of the year seem to be the longest, to me.
Not sure what I seem to be in a rush for.
It's the mystery of it all. What will happen next year? I don't know, yet.
Something will. Whatever it is. We'll see.
I just have a feeling that there will be some changes.
I don't know what they will be, yet.
I can just hope for the best. We all can.
Think about what could go right
rather than worrying about what could go wrong.
Which is easier said than done.
Thinking about what could go right has to become a habit,
otherwise the habit of worrying overrides it.
Not all changes are bad. People fear change
because they think it'll affect them negatively.
Good changes can happen, too.
But they don't just happen. Changes have to be made.
By taking consistent action and making the effort.
Not a lot changes when we are unwilling to do those two things.
I let a lot of time pass me by
because I was unwilling to do those things.
Mostly because I had a belief that I wasn't worth that.
I saw others unwillingness to take action
and their unwillingness to make the effort when it came to me.
And I felt totally unworthy. Especially when it came to relationships.
And I'm not even talking solely about romantic relationships.
I mean that in a sense of them not trying to connect with me.
On any level other than a superficial level.
I developed some complex. Or maybe it is a result of the complex.
Just because I rarely, if ever have certain experiences
doesn't mean I'm not worthy of those experiences,
but for the longest time, it felt like I was unworthy of any of it.
So I believed I was because I felt I was. I often still feel that way.
Releasing beliefs that do not support you is a process.
A process of elimination. Eliminating the belief.
And learning to believe in something else. It takes time.
Today was my first day of my morning ritual
and I still have no idea how I'm going to create it.
I'm creating it as I go along, but I think it would be better if I had one.
So that I can put the effort into doing it each day.
To see how it helps me improve my mood at the beginning of the day.
Eventually, I'll have an evening ritual, too.
But I want to start off slow and get into the flow of just doing it.
I want to combine some things into it. I might write about it another time.
It's about creating a new pattern and a new habit. Building a new structure.
The last couple weeks of the year seem to be the longest, to me.
Not sure what I seem to be in a rush for.
It's the mystery of it all. What will happen next year? I don't know, yet.
Something will. Whatever it is. We'll see.
I just have a feeling that there will be some changes.
I don't know what they will be, yet.
I can just hope for the best. We all can.
Think about what could go right
rather than worrying about what could go wrong.
Which is easier said than done.
Thinking about what could go right has to become a habit,
otherwise the habit of worrying overrides it.
Not all changes are bad. People fear change
because they think it'll affect them negatively.
Good changes can happen, too.
But they don't just happen. Changes have to be made.
By taking consistent action and making the effort.
Not a lot changes when we are unwilling to do those two things.
I let a lot of time pass me by
because I was unwilling to do those things.
Mostly because I had a belief that I wasn't worth that.
I saw others unwillingness to take action
and their unwillingness to make the effort when it came to me.
And I felt totally unworthy. Especially when it came to relationships.
And I'm not even talking solely about romantic relationships.
I mean that in a sense of them not trying to connect with me.
On any level other than a superficial level.
I developed some complex. Or maybe it is a result of the complex.
Just because I rarely, if ever have certain experiences
doesn't mean I'm not worthy of those experiences,
but for the longest time, it felt like I was unworthy of any of it.
So I believed I was because I felt I was. I often still feel that way.
Releasing beliefs that do not support you is a process.
A process of elimination. Eliminating the belief.
And learning to believe in something else. It takes time.
Today was my first day of my morning ritual
and I still have no idea how I'm going to create it.
I'm creating it as I go along, but I think it would be better if I had one.
So that I can put the effort into doing it each day.
To see how it helps me improve my mood at the beginning of the day.
Eventually, I'll have an evening ritual, too.
But I want to start off slow and get into the flow of just doing it.
I want to combine some things into it. I might write about it another time.
It's about creating a new pattern and a new habit. Building a new structure.
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