Background Images

I started working on something today for that assignment.
He said he wants the background removed from the images.
I barely know how to do it, but I need to learn anyway.
I meant learn to get better at doing it.
He also wants videos for his menus. Which is the second part.
I learned how to increase the resolution for the images.
There's a lot to learn. He has his menus on PowerPoint.
I haven't used it since I was in college, but I have it.
I can learn it as I go. The thing is that I was really worried about this.
Not knowing 'everything' before I tried to get into it.
I think he's giving me a shot because I've been honest with him.
I'm not telling him I'm a pro when I'm not.
I told him straight up that I'm still learning.

The employment programs he suggested... I don't qualify for them.
The thing is that I look and sound young. Like 10 years younger than I am.
It's weird, it's always been like that, except for when I was actually 10.
He doesn't know that I'm actually about to turn 35.
I think he thinks that I'm still in my 20s. He's not the only one.
I get that a lot. It can be both an advantage, and a disadvantage.
People underestimating me because they think
that I haven't lived long enough to gain any experience in anything.
They are almost always surprised when I tell them my actual age.

So I'm going to put something together and see if he likes it.
If he doesn't, oh well. At least I'm trying. We'll see how things go.
If anything, I'm learning new skills.

Anyway, been so tired today... Snow day.
Tomorrow is dentist and Thursday I'm going out. Not a date.
Tomorrow I'm probably going to the library after the dentist.
Going to bring my book with me again. I have like 40 pages left.

It's kind of funny that I got the "Learning New Skills" card for next month.
I did a spread for next year. One card for each month. Well actually 2,
then a card for the 4 months together.

I got "Grief work" for the rest of this month.
Devil in reverse and Celebration in reverse.
Don't know what that is supposed to mean, but doesn't sound good.
My relationship with my mother has changed.
I am changing. I went through a grieving period in my first 3 months of sobriety.
Because my life was changing. It is changing again, but this time is different.
I'm grieving what I used to want, but I have to let that go.
A lot of emotional stuff related to regret. Stuff like that. Guilt.

I have to look forward to the changes. Otherwise they aren't going to feel good.
They are going to feel intense and give me anxiety issues.
Overwhelming and hard to adapt.

I got the intensity card in reverse for February. So that's interesting.
It says: Being able to ride a story quarrel with friends and make peace.
Deciding to forgive a personal attack on yourself and move on with life.
Being strong enough not to take offense easily.
Relief at deciding against taking legal action.
It is linked to September 4th week.
And is related to Scorpio and Libra.

I'll probably write about this stuff as the months come up,
but I find that they really resonate.

Anyway, there are some things I have to do. Might write later.