Been 3 days since I started seeing my Grandmother in the hospital. I go at dinner time to help her with her dinner. Just eating wears her out and then she's usually falling asleep shortly after that. My mother keeps telling me that I'm not supposed to 'help' her with her food. I only do sometimes. She was getting distracted today because she kept staring at her room-mate. A Japanese fellow. I don't know why she hasn't got a female to share a room with. I know the guy is harmless. Doesn't know much English.
She was just staring at him so had to keep snapping her out of it by getting her to eat a bit more. I mean the nurses basically feed her meds to her in applesauce. So they are allowed to help her eat and I'm not? Doesn't make much sense. She does still do a lot on her own. Don't get me wrong, she's not completely helpless. I know she could be way worse off than she is. And she seems to be getting better. Yesterday, she was having a bit of trouble getting the spoon in her mouth. Then she'd start crying with a mouthful of food. She does need help, all the help she can get. So I'm trying my best to ignore them when they tell me that she 'has to' do 'everything' on her own. She wants to, then great! I'm not going to stop her, but if she's getting tired, but still needs to eat, or needs her mouth wiped, then, yes, I'm going to help her and everyone else can go f*ck themselves sideways with a basketball.
I'm there to tell her how well she is doing, which is important for her self-esteem in there. Keeps her motivated. I'm there to talk with her to keep her stimulated. She needs stimulation as much as she needs motivation. Those are key right now. Will be from here on out.
There's just a lot going on these days. Stuff I can't even get into on this blog because a lot (most) people would just not understand. Sometimes it's hard for me to understand. And... I can be pretty understanding. Been doing lots of thinking and I still have lots more thinking to do. There's some important stuff coming up soon. In the near future, that can affect my entire future. And this is the stuff I can't really talk about. Because I already know what people are going to tell me. So I'm just going to do my own thing. Hope for the best possible outcome. You never know, this could be exactly what I needed for a long time. Could go either way, honestly. But... Then again, so could everything else. I don't control how the future will be.
I just need a nap, succession of naps. Nothing wrong with sleeping on it. For as long as it takes.
She was just staring at him so had to keep snapping her out of it by getting her to eat a bit more. I mean the nurses basically feed her meds to her in applesauce. So they are allowed to help her eat and I'm not? Doesn't make much sense. She does still do a lot on her own. Don't get me wrong, she's not completely helpless. I know she could be way worse off than she is. And she seems to be getting better. Yesterday, she was having a bit of trouble getting the spoon in her mouth. Then she'd start crying with a mouthful of food. She does need help, all the help she can get. So I'm trying my best to ignore them when they tell me that she 'has to' do 'everything' on her own. She wants to, then great! I'm not going to stop her, but if she's getting tired, but still needs to eat, or needs her mouth wiped, then, yes, I'm going to help her and everyone else can go f*ck themselves sideways with a basketball.
I'm there to tell her how well she is doing, which is important for her self-esteem in there. Keeps her motivated. I'm there to talk with her to keep her stimulated. She needs stimulation as much as she needs motivation. Those are key right now. Will be from here on out.
There's just a lot going on these days. Stuff I can't even get into on this blog because a lot (most) people would just not understand. Sometimes it's hard for me to understand. And... I can be pretty understanding. Been doing lots of thinking and I still have lots more thinking to do. There's some important stuff coming up soon. In the near future, that can affect my entire future. And this is the stuff I can't really talk about. Because I already know what people are going to tell me. So I'm just going to do my own thing. Hope for the best possible outcome. You never know, this could be exactly what I needed for a long time. Could go either way, honestly. But... Then again, so could everything else. I don't control how the future will be.
I just need a nap, succession of naps. Nothing wrong with sleeping on it. For as long as it takes.
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