I have to work tonight but I'm having a hard time sleeping. Usually I don't have a hard time with this, but I've been wound up. Thinking about the rest of the week, the weekend, next week. No point in thinking too much about it. I've got lots of plans. I've got something almost every night of the week next week. It's been like that lately. I've joined lots of groups on www.meetup.com. Trying to make up for not having a social life. I guess since I turned 30 I realized how much time I spent alone and I need to get out more.
Well I spent most of the last 10 years raising my son. I rarely got out to do things. I don't regret it. I love my son and I'm glad that I got to spend so much time with him. I want to spend more time with him. I want to find something he and I can do together. I get to see him tomorrow and I'm taking him to see my Grandmother. I gotta see her more, too.
Time is going by so fast. Just want to fill my nights with something or than sitting here, right where I am, using the computer. I mean it is nice to have time to do what you want, but computers are addictive. The internet is addictive. I don't need to be addicted. I can live a better life. I can overcome this, like I have overcome so much. Of course I have so much more to overcome. At least I can admit this.
Being addicted to the internet has caused problems for me. In relationships. It enforced my isolation issues. I think I got addicted to the internet when I first was introduced to it. In college, it got pretty bad. It was my whole socialization. Which is kind of sad. I mean, lots of people rely on 'chatrooms' to socialize and rely on technology for communication... It's bringing down the 'face to face' interactions... Which is the saddest thing.
It doesn't help that I tend to communicate better in writing than I do in person... That doesn't help. But by going to these group meetings and events I feel like I'm finding things to do and 'practicing' my social skills. Well, there are workshops where people can learn something, too. The 'book club' I go to... I've been going to that for over a year and getting to know the people I'm meeting with. We don't really socialize outside of the group though. Partly because I have a hard time opening up to people and also because I'm the youngest in the group.
I don't know why it's hard for me to sleep. I really need to because I'm going to be awake all night. I don't like being exhausted when I get home from work, but it always happens. Even with having a beer when I get home, it is hard getting to sleep right away. Anyway, I'll write again later.
Well I spent most of the last 10 years raising my son. I rarely got out to do things. I don't regret it. I love my son and I'm glad that I got to spend so much time with him. I want to spend more time with him. I want to find something he and I can do together. I get to see him tomorrow and I'm taking him to see my Grandmother. I gotta see her more, too.
Time is going by so fast. Just want to fill my nights with something or than sitting here, right where I am, using the computer. I mean it is nice to have time to do what you want, but computers are addictive. The internet is addictive. I don't need to be addicted. I can live a better life. I can overcome this, like I have overcome so much. Of course I have so much more to overcome. At least I can admit this.
Being addicted to the internet has caused problems for me. In relationships. It enforced my isolation issues. I think I got addicted to the internet when I first was introduced to it. In college, it got pretty bad. It was my whole socialization. Which is kind of sad. I mean, lots of people rely on 'chatrooms' to socialize and rely on technology for communication... It's bringing down the 'face to face' interactions... Which is the saddest thing.
It doesn't help that I tend to communicate better in writing than I do in person... That doesn't help. But by going to these group meetings and events I feel like I'm finding things to do and 'practicing' my social skills. Well, there are workshops where people can learn something, too. The 'book club' I go to... I've been going to that for over a year and getting to know the people I'm meeting with. We don't really socialize outside of the group though. Partly because I have a hard time opening up to people and also because I'm the youngest in the group.
I don't know why it's hard for me to sleep. I really need to because I'm going to be awake all night. I don't like being exhausted when I get home from work, but it always happens. Even with having a beer when I get home, it is hard getting to sleep right away. Anyway, I'll write again later.
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