Going Crazy?

Well my ex and I were still friends... Until I told him about my spiritual stuff and he turned on me. Of course. He doesn't understand and never will. I can't even go into details about it because I don't think anyone would understand. It all seems crazy but I'm okay with it. Because I understand it and I think that is all that matters.

When friends care about each other and know each other so well... There shouldn't be anything wrong with that... Just one friend has restrictions that the other friend doesn't have....

I keep thinking I am going crazy, but nobody would ever stand by me if that were the case anyway. So I told one person... He took it the wrong way. He takes everything the wrong way. But I expected that because everyone else would probably react the same way... They'd probably lock me up. But why can't I be happy? Why can't love be something stronger than what it is generally seen as? Why can't love cross boundaries? What if two friends love each other in a platonic way? And one says to the other that they want to help them make an old dream come true? Just because that friend loves their friend so much.... What if one of the friends is alive and the other friend is no longer alive? That is the part that is hard to talk about.... Because that is the crazy part. Yet, to me it doesn't seem crazy. So if something crazy doesn't seem crazy, does that mean I'm going crazy?