There is a guy I used to like... I liked him for a long time. Only I realized that he wasn't ever going to realize that I liked him and the feelings I had for him were never going to be mutual. He's starting to realize that I used to like him. A little too late for that. Feelings change. People change. He could have been lucky. I mean, there are guys who like me and have asked me out. Yet, I wanted him. Or at least I thought I did. I realize now that I don't need him or anyone else. I'm okay with being alone. It wouldn't have worked out anyway. Too slow to understand things or see them. I don't know.
When trying to get his attention failed, I started asking myself, why do I even like this guy like this? I can't even answer that. That's when I realized, maybe I should re-think this whole thing. So that is what I'm doing now. Trying to forget I was that stupid. Trying to re-build my self-confidence. Trying to better myself. Whenever I like someone I think too much about them, and not about myself. So too bad for him. Too late. But in a good way. I'm not upset anymore. I needed that to realize a few things about myself. Guys are not worth losing myself over. I'm a nice girl, a good girl, most of the time. If someone doesn't want to take a chance on me, that is their choice. I don't make choices for other people. They make them themselves. It's their choice to make choices. Yeah, maybe it would have made me feel good if he asked me on a date. But I know that I'm not about to sit here and wait for him to call me.
My ex and I are starting to resume our friendship again. He still loves me. I still love him, but am not in love with him. So yeah, things are complicated.
But I think I am witty sometimes. I think I have a nice personality, most of the time. I would like to think I am mildly attractive. Without seeming conceited because I don't have enough or any pride in myself to be conceited. I'd like to think that I could be a nice catch for some guy one day. Just not anytime in the near future.
When trying to get his attention failed, I started asking myself, why do I even like this guy like this? I can't even answer that. That's when I realized, maybe I should re-think this whole thing. So that is what I'm doing now. Trying to forget I was that stupid. Trying to re-build my self-confidence. Trying to better myself. Whenever I like someone I think too much about them, and not about myself. So too bad for him. Too late. But in a good way. I'm not upset anymore. I needed that to realize a few things about myself. Guys are not worth losing myself over. I'm a nice girl, a good girl, most of the time. If someone doesn't want to take a chance on me, that is their choice. I don't make choices for other people. They make them themselves. It's their choice to make choices. Yeah, maybe it would have made me feel good if he asked me on a date. But I know that I'm not about to sit here and wait for him to call me.
My ex and I are starting to resume our friendship again. He still loves me. I still love him, but am not in love with him. So yeah, things are complicated.
But I think I am witty sometimes. I think I have a nice personality, most of the time. I would like to think I am mildly attractive. Without seeming conceited because I don't have enough or any pride in myself to be conceited. I'd like to think that I could be a nice catch for some guy one day. Just not anytime in the near future.
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