I keep thinking about what happened last night. Got nobody to really talk to about it. I'm really depressed. It's hard to describe how I feel. But even if I could, who would listen? I've been needing to talk all day and spent the whole day at home, alone. As usual. It really hurts being so alone in this world. Doing my best to keep it all inside because there is no real way of letting go of anything. Not anymore. I don't want to be alone right now... Where are all my friends?
There was a fire here last night. A lady died. Her son was arrested. I don't know much more than that. But it hit way too close to home for me. I'm pretty shocked and I hate being alone when I'm this depressed.... I tried to reach out, but there isn't anyone to really reach out to...
Then I keep thinking about Roger... Been watching a movie: To Save A Life
The kid, in the movie, his name is Roger. If you watch it, you'll know why I keep thinking about him. I have a song stuck in my head:
I keep listening to it, over and over. I guess I'm cracking up tonight. Was already cracked. Broken. But I keep breaking more and more on the inside. Having nobody to talk to doesn't help. I wanted help for so many years... It just doesn't seem to come. Then it is too late...
People like Roger (in the movie) and my friend Roger... They want to reach out, but they know that there isn't anyone to reach out to. I want to be strong, but sometimes trying to be strong is the hardest thing to do.
There was a fire here last night. A lady died. Her son was arrested. I don't know much more than that. But it hit way too close to home for me. I'm pretty shocked and I hate being alone when I'm this depressed.... I tried to reach out, but there isn't anyone to really reach out to...
Then I keep thinking about Roger... Been watching a movie: To Save A Life
The kid, in the movie, his name is Roger. If you watch it, you'll know why I keep thinking about him. I have a song stuck in my head:
I keep listening to it, over and over. I guess I'm cracking up tonight. Was already cracked. Broken. But I keep breaking more and more on the inside. Having nobody to talk to doesn't help. I wanted help for so many years... It just doesn't seem to come. Then it is too late...
People like Roger (in the movie) and my friend Roger... They want to reach out, but they know that there isn't anyone to reach out to. I want to be strong, but sometimes trying to be strong is the hardest thing to do.
1 comment:
I was thinking about you this morning when I saw the news about the fire. I thought it was your building. I saw it was a ground floor apartment so that put me at ease a little. I hope you didn't have to stand out in the cold all night! Its a horrible thing to happen but it could have been much worse.
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