Been replacing someone at work this week. I usually work on Sundays so this week has been pretty busy for me. The good thing is that it is going by pretty fast. 2 days left! My feet get so sore that I'm limping home every night. I keep forgetting I need some juice or something for when I get home...
Anyway... I met someone who really reminds me of my friend Roger. I know he'll never replace Roger (and I'm not trying to replace Roger) BUT I know he and I can be good friends like Roger and I once were.
I've been thinking of Roger a lot since I started working where he and I met (when we worked there together)... I joined a Facebook tribute page for Roger and a lady who once dated him (also my friend) posted a music video "I'll be missing you" by Puff Daddy. I cried when I was watching it, thinking of Roger.
Sometimes I think that if I went missing it'd take a while for my family to find out. Sometimes I think it'd take a while for my friends to find out...
I sometimes think of how I will die and been dreading my mortality... Because I've been having a hard to accepting my fate. Thinking about it gives me a lot of anxiety. Thinking about all the dangers of the world give me a HIGH level of anxiety. I worry about my son every day. He's so young and vulnerable, sweet and innocent. Bringing him into this world was the best thing I ever did. He's so loving and kind. So smart and so special. I just wish that life gets better for him. He means everything to me. Always will. I love him!
Anyway... I met someone who really reminds me of my friend Roger. I know he'll never replace Roger (and I'm not trying to replace Roger) BUT I know he and I can be good friends like Roger and I once were.
I've been thinking of Roger a lot since I started working where he and I met (when we worked there together)... I joined a Facebook tribute page for Roger and a lady who once dated him (also my friend) posted a music video "I'll be missing you" by Puff Daddy. I cried when I was watching it, thinking of Roger.
Sometimes I think that if I went missing it'd take a while for my family to find out. Sometimes I think it'd take a while for my friends to find out...
I sometimes think of how I will die and been dreading my mortality... Because I've been having a hard to accepting my fate. Thinking about it gives me a lot of anxiety. Thinking about all the dangers of the world give me a HIGH level of anxiety. I worry about my son every day. He's so young and vulnerable, sweet and innocent. Bringing him into this world was the best thing I ever did. He's so loving and kind. So smart and so special. I just wish that life gets better for him. He means everything to me. Always will. I love him!
Why worry about how you will die? No one knows this. You can only take precautions not to die in silly ways...like getting hit by a bus or something. But really there are all sorts of ways you can get dead if you worry about it too much you'll drive yourself nuts! :)
ReplyDeleteI'm not really worried about how I will die, just anticipating it since it will happen whether I want it to or not. Anxious about it. I think I'm already nuts! Happy belated birthday to Georgia! I did remember just lost track of the days. That whole week went by in a blur.
ReplyDeleteno worries...seriously though how you live is way more important than how you will die...you basically have 80+ years to figure out how to live but only a brief moment in time to figure out how to die...it's really not important in the grand scheme of things.
ReplyDeleteMy soul will probably still be around after I'm dead because knowing how stubborn I am I still don't think I'll be able to accept that I'm dead. Just like how I have a hard time accepting things about life.
ReplyDeletePhilosophically, we part ways here since I don't believe in the existence of souls or human duality (ie separation of body and conciousness). I guess that's why I don't worry too much about being dead. :D Obviously, I'd rather be alive and experience the world and, when the time comes, I'll experience dying but I don't expect to experience "dead" since my brain will stop functioning.
ReplyDeleteI know how skeptical you are. I'd like to say that you are agnostic. Like given some indisputable proof you would believe it was true. I don't want to change you of course. You can believe anything and everything (or not) that you want to. So can I and that is something I appreciate about being your friend. That you don't try to get me to believe things that you believe and vice versus.
ReplyDeleteI also know that this (Halloween) is your least favorite holiday. Instead of saying Happy Halloween, I'll say Happy Wednesday! :)
:) thanks..I do dislike Halloween!..Actually, I'd put myself firmly in the "Atheist" category rather than agnostic. Like any person of science I'll believe if given proof. Agnostics tend to just say we can't know the answers.. Atheists say we can't know the answers as well but there are some things more likely to be true than others :) anyway, Happy Halloween Abby...Even though I don't like it lots of people do, including, Margo who doesn't like Xmas...I like Xmas though...yeah we're a little strange ;)
ReplyDeleteI remember your post from years ago when you said you disliked Halloween. I always remembered that about you. Your daughter makes a cute little baby elephant though! Daniel went as an elephant on his first Halloween, too. One year I went as a gorilla and he was a baby monkey. I wish I had brought my camera this year. He went as a goblin or something like that. He says that if he ever has a baby brother or sister, he'll get them to get him candy. He's close to puberty now so it won't be long before he'll think of himself as too old to do kid stuff.
ReplyDeleteI can see you having a few kids :) I have a feeling that Georgia will be a lot more like you than you think... You'll be surprised! Lots of great surprises in store for you! I'm happy for you in advance because I know there are great things waiting for you!