I'm frustrated today... It feels like a lot of people don't listen to me. Why can't they just hear me and understand me? That's all I really wanted, to be understood...
I asked for my old job back, and they gave it to me... Only they want me to work weekends and I told them I couldn't because I have my kid on the weekends... But they keep trying to get me to agree to work weekends... Weekend shifts are only during the day and they make less money for the day shifts... It's not about making less money, it's them assuming I am going to take those shifts because nobody else wants them. Them trying to get me to take shifts that I'm not available for. About them not listening to me when I told them I couldn't do it. They can't fire me because they refuse to give me shifts I'm available for... So I'll have to try to talk some sense into them tonight. Just when I'm frustrated like this... It makes it harder to communicate because I know they still won't listen and it just gets me even more frustrated.
I asked for my old job back because I do have experience there. I hated the company back then, but I am hoping that with a UNION now, that they'll be more reasonable with the employees. I hated how they ran things then and I'm not seeing the improvements yet. All I can do is be patient and thankful that they are hiring me back. Even if I only work there while I look for something else. It's the same with all cleaning companies... All they care about is the contract and their money while they fail to realize that it's the people who work for them making them that money and letting them keep their contract.
Anyways, tonight is my second night back... I'm going to try to be patient because that's all I can do. I keep telling myself that a job is a job.... Even though I keep thinking that if I could find the perfect fit... Something that I'm qualified to do, that allows me to apply myself, my knowledge and skills.... It's just really hard to get in anywhere, unless you've already worked there or if you know someone who can get you in somewhere.
I'm anxious when people don't listen to me and assume things... I get frustrated when people think things of me, or even ask me something without even listening to the answer.
I want to be happy, but I keep giving into making other people happy and I end up feeling miserable. It's years of being accommodating that makes me give up on what I want out of life. I've always let people push me around. Not because it's seemingly easier than standing up for myself, but because I never learned how to stand up for myself. When I do stand up for myself people see me differently and they don't like it. Is it because they aren't getting their own way that they don't like me when I do stand up for myself?
I asked for my old job back, and they gave it to me... Only they want me to work weekends and I told them I couldn't because I have my kid on the weekends... But they keep trying to get me to agree to work weekends... Weekend shifts are only during the day and they make less money for the day shifts... It's not about making less money, it's them assuming I am going to take those shifts because nobody else wants them. Them trying to get me to take shifts that I'm not available for. About them not listening to me when I told them I couldn't do it. They can't fire me because they refuse to give me shifts I'm available for... So I'll have to try to talk some sense into them tonight. Just when I'm frustrated like this... It makes it harder to communicate because I know they still won't listen and it just gets me even more frustrated.
I asked for my old job back because I do have experience there. I hated the company back then, but I am hoping that with a UNION now, that they'll be more reasonable with the employees. I hated how they ran things then and I'm not seeing the improvements yet. All I can do is be patient and thankful that they are hiring me back. Even if I only work there while I look for something else. It's the same with all cleaning companies... All they care about is the contract and their money while they fail to realize that it's the people who work for them making them that money and letting them keep their contract.
Anyways, tonight is my second night back... I'm going to try to be patient because that's all I can do. I keep telling myself that a job is a job.... Even though I keep thinking that if I could find the perfect fit... Something that I'm qualified to do, that allows me to apply myself, my knowledge and skills.... It's just really hard to get in anywhere, unless you've already worked there or if you know someone who can get you in somewhere.
I'm anxious when people don't listen to me and assume things... I get frustrated when people think things of me, or even ask me something without even listening to the answer.
I want to be happy, but I keep giving into making other people happy and I end up feeling miserable. It's years of being accommodating that makes me give up on what I want out of life. I've always let people push me around. Not because it's seemingly easier than standing up for myself, but because I never learned how to stand up for myself. When I do stand up for myself people see me differently and they don't like it. Is it because they aren't getting their own way that they don't like me when I do stand up for myself?
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