The more I read on this stuff, the better I feel. The more hope I give to myself and get out of this knowledge.
So to heck with dating... I don't NEED a MAN, I NEED MYSELF. Because this need I have of myself, I am attracted to this spiritual path. I find it hard to describe. I try to tell people what my plans are, but they don't understand why I'm doing this. Because it is necessary at this time in my life. This is the year of my transformation. I can't expect to just wake up one day and be someone new. I have to work TOWARDS being a new person. I must awaken myself because my spirit has been dormant for all these years. I never knew myself the way I needed to know myself. I want to function properly as a human being. Not only a human being, a spiritual being. Because that is what we all are! You think you're a body that has a soul? NO! You're a SOUL that has a BODY. It is because of your SOUL that you are ALIVE. When this physical world ceases to exist, what is left? YOUR SOUL.
Things happen for a reason in life. We ask the questions we NEED to KNOW the ANSWERS to. Because we are thirsty for knowledge. But, we are acquiring our arsenal of skills. We don't need weapons for this spiritual war because we are only fighting ourselves. We are our own worst enemies. Because of our ability to judge ourselves as others judge us. Judging is far different from Appraising. Judging is based on labels and biases. Appraisals are based on assessments. Assessments are based on what works and what doesn't work. Assessments are based on applications.
I am learning more and more every night. I feel like I have to write about this stuff to make it clearer in my mind. I can read something, and think: Hey! This makes sense! But only when I try to explain it in my own words does it actually take affect in the realm of making sense. (If that makes sense).
I've been reading things like THIS ~~~~~> The 6 levels of Emotional Responsibility. Everyone needs to know how to be able to respond to their own emotions. Without this knowledge, personal relationships are harder to create and to maintain.
Think of your life as an evolving revolution. Revolutions are all about change. How does one change? With growth and time. That's the evolution meets revolution thing happening. That's what life is. Personalized to meet your own goals. What is the ultimate goal? To actualize your potential. There's hope for ALL of US, no matter how hopeless some people feel. Today, for example, I felt pretty hopeless. I lose hope when I lose faith. I gain hope when I gain faith. For someone to have faith in me (a future partner) I must have faith in myself. You can't have LOVE without HOPE and FAITH. All three of them work together. When you lose faith in your own abilities, you feel hopeless, then you feel unworthy of love... You need faith in your own abilities to feel hopeful and worthy of love.
I keep thinking that if I knew all this stuff YEARS AGO, I may have already been where I want to be in life. But I keep thinking that the reason I'm so far behind is because I wasn't READY then. I knew I wanted to change and have a better life so that my goal to be happy and to have stability could be reached one day. The thing that has always been there to stop me is my own fear of failing that created INERTIA. I was unable to move forward because I was afraid that I couldn't do it. The only way to overcoming our obstacles is to identify them!
My obstacles are: Anxiety, Procrastination, Inertia, Fear, Judgement... To name a few...
I was thinking a lot tonight and the more I learn, the more I think. The more I think, the more I want to learn. It is a positive cycle. You know the questions: WHO, WHAT, WHY, WHERE, WHEN, and HOW?
I know most of the WHY... Like WHY it is important to move forward. For the longest time I didn't really know WHY I was resisting the advancement or WHY it seemed like for every advancement I made, there were depositions. The depositions made it seem like there weren't any advancements. Now I can look at it this way: Each deposition is merely a JUNCTION at which to make DECISIONS. Looking at it like this makes it feel like depositions aren't a bad thing.
The WHAT is the progress to be made and the goals to be progressing towards. Also your HOPES and DREAMS because they are the goals you're working towards. Hope is powerful word. To expect with desire is 'to hope'. To expect with confidence is 'to trust'. TRUST is AN ASSURED RELIANCE. You simply cannot trust someone if you are unsure that they are reliable. You can only trust them if you are assured (know) that they are reliable. Same goes for yourself. You can only TRUST YOURSELF if you are ASSURED that YOU ARE RELIABLE!
The WHO is mostly MYSELF in my own journey to self-discovery and self-reliance. The WHO for YOU is YOURSELF. Also, I've been thinking of WHO I CAN TRUST to HELP ME. There are people I feel I can TRUST, but there are also people I feel like I cannot trust because I know that they are unreliable. I want to be able to trust people who are part of my life. Like my family... (Which might never happen) Also people who are my TRUE FRIENDS. It's hard to know who is willing to be a true friend. To be able to advance, I need allies. People knew this hundreds of years ago and I'm just discovering this now.
The WHERE is the direction that you take your life. You can obviously change for the better or for the worse. Of course I want to change for the BETTER. So that I can teach all of this to my son one day. So I can look back on my life years from now and see an improvement. The only way to make IMPROVEMENTS is through EMPOWERMENT. The only real empowerment anyone will ever have is the empowerment they get through ENCOURAGEMENT and that they get from their FAITH in THEMSELVES. You can't have faith in something or someone you cannot trust. So you definitely need trust in order to have faith.
The WHEN is the point in your life where you feel the STRONGEST, or even the point in your life when you are beginning to gain STRENGTH. The most important thing to remember is that your mind is the most powerful TOOL that anyone will ever have. The pinnacle point is when you achieve the connection with your mind, spirit, and your soul. The more you learn to use your mind (for you, rather than against you) the easier the connection becomes. Think of spirituality as the electricity that you need to power yourself towards your goals. You can't just turn on the T.V when there is no electricity, so how can you expect to see the BIG PICTURE? Same principle applies with spirituality and the BIG PICTURE. The BIG PICTURE is the SUMMATION of your life. The sum of all your experiences and lessons you've either learned or haven't learned.
I guess I'm kind of rambling, but I hope that these ramblings make sense. Maybe this will help you see that 'crazy' people aren't as 'crazy' as they seem to be!
So to heck with dating... I don't NEED a MAN, I NEED MYSELF. Because this need I have of myself, I am attracted to this spiritual path. I find it hard to describe. I try to tell people what my plans are, but they don't understand why I'm doing this. Because it is necessary at this time in my life. This is the year of my transformation. I can't expect to just wake up one day and be someone new. I have to work TOWARDS being a new person. I must awaken myself because my spirit has been dormant for all these years. I never knew myself the way I needed to know myself. I want to function properly as a human being. Not only a human being, a spiritual being. Because that is what we all are! You think you're a body that has a soul? NO! You're a SOUL that has a BODY. It is because of your SOUL that you are ALIVE. When this physical world ceases to exist, what is left? YOUR SOUL.
Things happen for a reason in life. We ask the questions we NEED to KNOW the ANSWERS to. Because we are thirsty for knowledge. But, we are acquiring our arsenal of skills. We don't need weapons for this spiritual war because we are only fighting ourselves. We are our own worst enemies. Because of our ability to judge ourselves as others judge us. Judging is far different from Appraising. Judging is based on labels and biases. Appraisals are based on assessments. Assessments are based on what works and what doesn't work. Assessments are based on applications.
I am learning more and more every night. I feel like I have to write about this stuff to make it clearer in my mind. I can read something, and think: Hey! This makes sense! But only when I try to explain it in my own words does it actually take affect in the realm of making sense. (If that makes sense).
I've been reading things like THIS ~~~~~> The 6 levels of Emotional Responsibility. Everyone needs to know how to be able to respond to their own emotions. Without this knowledge, personal relationships are harder to create and to maintain.
Think of your life as an evolving revolution. Revolutions are all about change. How does one change? With growth and time. That's the evolution meets revolution thing happening. That's what life is. Personalized to meet your own goals. What is the ultimate goal? To actualize your potential. There's hope for ALL of US, no matter how hopeless some people feel. Today, for example, I felt pretty hopeless. I lose hope when I lose faith. I gain hope when I gain faith. For someone to have faith in me (a future partner) I must have faith in myself. You can't have LOVE without HOPE and FAITH. All three of them work together. When you lose faith in your own abilities, you feel hopeless, then you feel unworthy of love... You need faith in your own abilities to feel hopeful and worthy of love.
I keep thinking that if I knew all this stuff YEARS AGO, I may have already been where I want to be in life. But I keep thinking that the reason I'm so far behind is because I wasn't READY then. I knew I wanted to change and have a better life so that my goal to be happy and to have stability could be reached one day. The thing that has always been there to stop me is my own fear of failing that created INERTIA. I was unable to move forward because I was afraid that I couldn't do it. The only way to overcoming our obstacles is to identify them!
My obstacles are: Anxiety, Procrastination, Inertia, Fear, Judgement... To name a few...
I was thinking a lot tonight and the more I learn, the more I think. The more I think, the more I want to learn. It is a positive cycle. You know the questions: WHO, WHAT, WHY, WHERE, WHEN, and HOW?
I know most of the WHY... Like WHY it is important to move forward. For the longest time I didn't really know WHY I was resisting the advancement or WHY it seemed like for every advancement I made, there were depositions. The depositions made it seem like there weren't any advancements. Now I can look at it this way: Each deposition is merely a JUNCTION at which to make DECISIONS. Looking at it like this makes it feel like depositions aren't a bad thing.
The WHAT is the progress to be made and the goals to be progressing towards. Also your HOPES and DREAMS because they are the goals you're working towards. Hope is powerful word. To expect with desire is 'to hope'. To expect with confidence is 'to trust'. TRUST is AN ASSURED RELIANCE. You simply cannot trust someone if you are unsure that they are reliable. You can only trust them if you are assured (know) that they are reliable. Same goes for yourself. You can only TRUST YOURSELF if you are ASSURED that YOU ARE RELIABLE!
The WHO is mostly MYSELF in my own journey to self-discovery and self-reliance. The WHO for YOU is YOURSELF. Also, I've been thinking of WHO I CAN TRUST to HELP ME. There are people I feel I can TRUST, but there are also people I feel like I cannot trust because I know that they are unreliable. I want to be able to trust people who are part of my life. Like my family... (Which might never happen) Also people who are my TRUE FRIENDS. It's hard to know who is willing to be a true friend. To be able to advance, I need allies. People knew this hundreds of years ago and I'm just discovering this now.
The WHERE is the direction that you take your life. You can obviously change for the better or for the worse. Of course I want to change for the BETTER. So that I can teach all of this to my son one day. So I can look back on my life years from now and see an improvement. The only way to make IMPROVEMENTS is through EMPOWERMENT. The only real empowerment anyone will ever have is the empowerment they get through ENCOURAGEMENT and that they get from their FAITH in THEMSELVES. You can't have faith in something or someone you cannot trust. So you definitely need trust in order to have faith.
The WHEN is the point in your life where you feel the STRONGEST, or even the point in your life when you are beginning to gain STRENGTH. The most important thing to remember is that your mind is the most powerful TOOL that anyone will ever have. The pinnacle point is when you achieve the connection with your mind, spirit, and your soul. The more you learn to use your mind (for you, rather than against you) the easier the connection becomes. Think of spirituality as the electricity that you need to power yourself towards your goals. You can't just turn on the T.V when there is no electricity, so how can you expect to see the BIG PICTURE? Same principle applies with spirituality and the BIG PICTURE. The BIG PICTURE is the SUMMATION of your life. The sum of all your experiences and lessons you've either learned or haven't learned.
I guess I'm kind of rambling, but I hope that these ramblings make sense. Maybe this will help you see that 'crazy' people aren't as 'crazy' as they seem to be!
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