There hasn't been a whole lot going on these days. Not in my life anyway. I'm still dating the same guy. Been 4 months now and things are going pretty good between him and I. We have times where we get on each other's nerves but we end up working it out.
I haven't really used the internet much lately. I still don't have internet at home and I owe the library a crap load of money. BASTARDS at the library...
I'm working on getting my act together. I have reasons to want to now. I should have always wanted to. Deep down inside I probably wanted to,but it takes a lot to actually admit it and it takes a heck of a lot more to actually do it.
I finally told the people who were walking all over me that I wasn't going to let them do that anymore. Why should I? I realized that my own family members don't have any respect for me. Especially my brothers. I get looked at to fix things for them when all I really want is to fix things for myself.
So, yes, I go to Anger Management once a week. I'm still seeing my psychiatrist. I don't know why I go to see her. I don't feel as though she gives me any answers I can use. She made an appointment for me for the end of the month. So how am I supposed to get anywhere when I don't even see her for 3 weeks?
I had to go for blood tests and I got the result I was waiting for. I spent all that time worrying for nothing. It usually seems that way, that things aren't as bad as they seem. I think I make them seem worse in my head.
There are a bunch of things I've started to do. I started sleeping in my bedroom again. I used to sleep in there when I first moved in, then my ex and I were still living together after we broke up. He was sleeping in the livingroom and I was sleeping in the bedroom. He moved out and I went to sleeping in the livingroom. For a few years. But now I'm going to paint my bedroom BLUE and fix it up the way it should be. It hasn't been painted in there since 2004. It really needs some fresh paint.
I also bought a new camera. I wasn't going to, but it was half price and I busted the last one I had. I was going down a hill on a scooter and it was steep. So I wiped out and landed on my camera. Smashed the screen.
Also, I put up my calendar in the bedroom. A dry erase calendar so it makes it easy to put up my tasks and erase them once they are done.
I haven't really used the internet much lately. I still don't have internet at home and I owe the library a crap load of money. BASTARDS at the library...
I'm working on getting my act together. I have reasons to want to now. I should have always wanted to. Deep down inside I probably wanted to,but it takes a lot to actually admit it and it takes a heck of a lot more to actually do it.
I finally told the people who were walking all over me that I wasn't going to let them do that anymore. Why should I? I realized that my own family members don't have any respect for me. Especially my brothers. I get looked at to fix things for them when all I really want is to fix things for myself.
So, yes, I go to Anger Management once a week. I'm still seeing my psychiatrist. I don't know why I go to see her. I don't feel as though she gives me any answers I can use. She made an appointment for me for the end of the month. So how am I supposed to get anywhere when I don't even see her for 3 weeks?
I had to go for blood tests and I got the result I was waiting for. I spent all that time worrying for nothing. It usually seems that way, that things aren't as bad as they seem. I think I make them seem worse in my head.
There are a bunch of things I've started to do. I started sleeping in my bedroom again. I used to sleep in there when I first moved in, then my ex and I were still living together after we broke up. He was sleeping in the livingroom and I was sleeping in the bedroom. He moved out and I went to sleeping in the livingroom. For a few years. But now I'm going to paint my bedroom BLUE and fix it up the way it should be. It hasn't been painted in there since 2004. It really needs some fresh paint.
I also bought a new camera. I wasn't going to, but it was half price and I busted the last one I had. I was going down a hill on a scooter and it was steep. So I wiped out and landed on my camera. Smashed the screen.
Also, I put up my calendar in the bedroom. A dry erase calendar so it makes it easy to put up my tasks and erase them once they are done.
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