Hmmm, this new version of blogger seems weird to me. Maybe too used to the older version.
Anyway, spent most of the day at the court house. I got the name of a lawyer and even called him. He'd take my case, but he needs me to get a form. A purple form. To get a certificate. I tried to get this purple form for my lawyer today, but i got a number for a mediator instead. I'm not really having issues with my ex, but rather with the Childrn's Aid Society. I've had issues with them for most of my life. That isn't the issue anymore. It's about getting them to listen andtake you seriously because once they make assumptions about you, you're basically screwed. I know I can get my kid back from his father if I jump through all the stupid hoops they set up.
I agreed to anger management treatment even though that's not my issue. My issue is Anxiety management and I'm going to be in a treatment program for that. I have to go for an intake session thing, which isn't until the beginning of November. It sucks that I have to wait that long. For something I should have had access to a long time ago.
Each time I really try to get ahead, it seems like the longer it takes to actually move forward. I know that seems strange to people who are used to instant results. It seems like I'm moving backwards instead of forwards. You know what? I see my psychiatrist 2 times each month, and it's sort of helping. She does give me advice often. I haven't told her all of my problems. She expects me to just give her an update. I haven't told her a lot of stuff that happened in the past. I guess it shouldn't bother me that much after years later. I think it only still does because I haven't faced the fears attached to the experience.
I took psychology in college, but it does pertain to my situations that much. I hate when there are these novice social workers or whatever and they just can't help you due to lack of experience. Life is much more than you read in a text book. It's much more than you can even interpret from a text book. It's everything you need to figure out what you need to do to keep keeping on. Actually it's what you nees to know to be able to help yourself and/or someone else. You actually can learn a lot about yourself from helping other people.
Anyway, spent most of the day at the court house. I got the name of a lawyer and even called him. He'd take my case, but he needs me to get a form. A purple form. To get a certificate. I tried to get this purple form for my lawyer today, but i got a number for a mediator instead. I'm not really having issues with my ex, but rather with the Childrn's Aid Society. I've had issues with them for most of my life. That isn't the issue anymore. It's about getting them to listen andtake you seriously because once they make assumptions about you, you're basically screwed. I know I can get my kid back from his father if I jump through all the stupid hoops they set up.
I agreed to anger management treatment even though that's not my issue. My issue is Anxiety management and I'm going to be in a treatment program for that. I have to go for an intake session thing, which isn't until the beginning of November. It sucks that I have to wait that long. For something I should have had access to a long time ago.
Each time I really try to get ahead, it seems like the longer it takes to actually move forward. I know that seems strange to people who are used to instant results. It seems like I'm moving backwards instead of forwards. You know what? I see my psychiatrist 2 times each month, and it's sort of helping. She does give me advice often. I haven't told her all of my problems. She expects me to just give her an update. I haven't told her a lot of stuff that happened in the past. I guess it shouldn't bother me that much after years later. I think it only still does because I haven't faced the fears attached to the experience.
I took psychology in college, but it does pertain to my situations that much. I hate when there are these novice social workers or whatever and they just can't help you due to lack of experience. Life is much more than you read in a text book. It's much more than you can even interpret from a text book. It's everything you need to figure out what you need to do to keep keeping on. Actually it's what you nees to know to be able to help yourself and/or someone else. You actually can learn a lot about yourself from helping other people.
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