Something to Think About

Ok, it's been a very confusing and emotional time for me.
I don't know how to feel.
I guess I'm scared that I'm going to take the wrong path...
I don't know where I'm headed.

First of all, I started talking to an amazing person

and although he is moving to Texas, we are going to keep in touch.

So I have been thinking about that and many things he has told me.

Some things happen out of the blue.
Things that I least expected.
Someone I have not seen or spoken to in the last ten years has re-entered my life. It is obvious the attraction is stronger than it had been back then.
So I have been thinking about that also and many things HE has told me...

Decisions, decisions....

Can't forget my current situation and what should I do about that?

Needless to say the emotional connection is no longer there.

It had faded away a long time ago.

But this sudden surprise is nice.

I'm just hoping it happened for the right reasons and not because of lust.

I want something real.

Maybe because of the past it would last a little longer,

but it might just be 'fun' on his mind.

I definately need something more....

I wonder what the deal is with the timing.

When you think you found something good and another opportunity

comes your way...

What are you supposed to do?

What am I supposed to do?

Do things happen for a reason?

If only I had some answers...

If only I knew the best thing to do and how to do it right...

If only I knew why I was doing it...

Why does life have to be so complicated?

Why do emotions have to be so overwhelming?

The pressure is on.

Not from them

From me.

I need to know

If it is going to be real

and not some hurtful joke...

OMG, it better not be a joke!

I need it more than anything...

The past was so long ago

But is it enough to make it work?

Or should I just let it go?

I wish I knew what to do!