I feel so out of place,
like I have nowhere that I really belong.
I used to feel like I belonged at Church,
I don't go anymore
because I don't feel like I belong there.
Churches are supposed to be welcoming places
where a person can feel like they belong.
It has turned into a social club for the snobby rich folks
who've had their social circles
long before they went to that Church.
My Grandmother is the only one in my family
who I can say that I'm close to.
I don't have many friends, if any.
I always hear about people having parties
and I always feel left out because I never get invited.
Somehow everyone knew...
Everything got messed up
because of something bad that happened.
Something that they blamed me for,
but I keep telling myself that it's not my fault.
It wasn't until last year
that I was told the truth.
I started to understand
why he was so mad at the world.
They just want to forget
so they can get on with their lives.
I wish I could forget, too.
You can't pick your family,
you can only pick your friends.
I'd rather have good friends
in whom I can rely
than family who I can only expect
to be inconsistant and inconsiderate.
I just want to feel like I belong, somewhere.
Doesn't everyone want to belong somewhere?
Isn't that a realistic human need?
Or is it just another one of my selfish desires?
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