I was reading about how electroconvulsive therapy worked to treat
severe depression. I read that it causes a loss of short-term memory.
It made me think of that movie called One Flew Over The CooCoo's Nest.
That part at the end... If you haven't seen it, I won't ruin it for you.
It's a good movie, a classic. I recommend seeing it. At least once.
Anyway, the book goes on to talk about how people distract themselves
from feelings of sadness etc with certain activities.
Maybe I do this with writing, maybe I just like to write.
The book is saying that the most effective distractions are the ones
that shift your mood.
Another thing that is mentioned is that there was a study done
where they studied heavy TV watchers
and they studied them to see if it lifted their mood,
but it actually didn't. They were generally more depressed than when they started.
I guess it depends. I used to watch a lot of true crime shows.
I used to read a lot of true crime books, too.
When I stopped giving my attention to it, I felt a lot better.
I'm not ignoring (per se) that things still happen,
but I'm not giving my attention to it.
I watched it and read about it because I am interested in psychology.
Well, specifically, criminology. Both.
I wanted to understand what leads people down the path of destruction.
But I shifted the focus off of them and back onto me.
Trying to figure out why I lead myself down my own path of self-destruction.
Anyway, I stopped watching TV habitually. I watch lots of videos,
but I don't watch many shows anymore and I rarely watch movies.
I've distracted myself a lot from things I could have focused on.
But I wasn't thinking about the things I might discover about myself.
I've been afraid to see things about myself that I didn't want to see.
But when you don't see things, you don't become aware of them.
And when you don't become aware of them, you can't work on them.
I knew there are things about me that I don't like etc.
But I guess I wanted to be in denial about those things.
Being in denial about being in denial, too, actually.
There are people who are in such denial that they are in denial
that they are in denial about being in denial about being in denial.
The thing about being in denial is that you deny yourself access
to certain information, insights, etc that you could gain access to
if you weren't in denial. But it is hard to accept things
that we can't change and hard to accept the things that we THINK
that we can't change. Just because we THINK we can't
doesn't mean that we can't. It just means we THINK we can't.
I thought I couldn't do certain things that I discovered that I could do.
But I couldn't do them as long as I thought that I couldn't.
I was reading something else someone wrote...
She was saying: "What would you do if fear wasn't holding you back?"
Then she says: "There are baby steps you can take towards your dreams
and baby steps you can take to work through your fears."
Anyway, it was said that exercise lifts mood.
I used to exercise a lot more than I do now.
When I was in college, I lost 70 pounds.
In between classes, I had a circuit that I did on the campus.
Just walking, but I did a bunch of laps.
I did some running and skipping last year.
I stopped because I'm not consuming a lot of calories
so if I burned them, I wouldn't have them and I need them.
I mean, I'm going to burn them anyway, but I burn them up in other ways.
I don't know why I didn't know this, but thinking burns calories.
All I know is that I have to consume more calories
so that I can resume exercising. I think that is part of the issue
that I'm having with my heart. It needs to get pumping and stuff,
also been too afraid of overworking it.
Like: "That was a good workout!
But now I can't breathe and I think I'm having a heart attack!"
They say it works because depression is a state of low arousal.
And execise gets the body into a state of high arousal.
The thing is that with anxiety, you don't want to be in a really high state
of arousal, I mean like...
(Not that kind of arousal. Get your head out of the gutter).
It says "It pitches the brain into a state that is incompatible
with the emotional state that had it in its grip."
severe depression. I read that it causes a loss of short-term memory.
It made me think of that movie called One Flew Over The CooCoo's Nest.
That part at the end... If you haven't seen it, I won't ruin it for you.
It's a good movie, a classic. I recommend seeing it. At least once.
Anyway, the book goes on to talk about how people distract themselves
from feelings of sadness etc with certain activities.
Maybe I do this with writing, maybe I just like to write.
The book is saying that the most effective distractions are the ones
that shift your mood.
Another thing that is mentioned is that there was a study done
where they studied heavy TV watchers
and they studied them to see if it lifted their mood,
but it actually didn't. They were generally more depressed than when they started.
I guess it depends. I used to watch a lot of true crime shows.
I used to read a lot of true crime books, too.
When I stopped giving my attention to it, I felt a lot better.
I'm not ignoring (per se) that things still happen,
but I'm not giving my attention to it.
I watched it and read about it because I am interested in psychology.
Well, specifically, criminology. Both.
I wanted to understand what leads people down the path of destruction.
But I shifted the focus off of them and back onto me.
Trying to figure out why I lead myself down my own path of self-destruction.
Anyway, I stopped watching TV habitually. I watch lots of videos,
but I don't watch many shows anymore and I rarely watch movies.
I've distracted myself a lot from things I could have focused on.
But I wasn't thinking about the things I might discover about myself.
I've been afraid to see things about myself that I didn't want to see.
But when you don't see things, you don't become aware of them.
And when you don't become aware of them, you can't work on them.
I knew there are things about me that I don't like etc.
But I guess I wanted to be in denial about those things.
Being in denial about being in denial, too, actually.
There are people who are in such denial that they are in denial
that they are in denial about being in denial about being in denial.
The thing about being in denial is that you deny yourself access
to certain information, insights, etc that you could gain access to
if you weren't in denial. But it is hard to accept things
that we can't change and hard to accept the things that we THINK
that we can't change. Just because we THINK we can't
doesn't mean that we can't. It just means we THINK we can't.
I thought I couldn't do certain things that I discovered that I could do.
But I couldn't do them as long as I thought that I couldn't.
I was reading something else someone wrote...
She was saying: "What would you do if fear wasn't holding you back?"
Then she says: "There are baby steps you can take towards your dreams
and baby steps you can take to work through your fears."
Anyway, it was said that exercise lifts mood.
I used to exercise a lot more than I do now.
When I was in college, I lost 70 pounds.
In between classes, I had a circuit that I did on the campus.
Just walking, but I did a bunch of laps.
I did some running and skipping last year.
I stopped because I'm not consuming a lot of calories
so if I burned them, I wouldn't have them and I need them.
I mean, I'm going to burn them anyway, but I burn them up in other ways.
I don't know why I didn't know this, but thinking burns calories.
All I know is that I have to consume more calories
so that I can resume exercising. I think that is part of the issue
that I'm having with my heart. It needs to get pumping and stuff,
also been too afraid of overworking it.
Like: "That was a good workout!
But now I can't breathe and I think I'm having a heart attack!"
They say it works because depression is a state of low arousal.
And execise gets the body into a state of high arousal.
The thing is that with anxiety, you don't want to be in a really high state
of arousal, I mean like...
(Not that kind of arousal. Get your head out of the gutter).
It says "It pitches the brain into a state that is incompatible
with the emotional state that had it in its grip."
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