They had me in the dish pit again.
I guess everyone gets to be in there for a week.
Why they didn't have me start on the Monday, I don't know.
So back at it tomorrow. It's not so bad, though.
It makes time go by extra fast. Twice as fast
because I'm always on the move and have to be fast in there to catch up.
We had some help today, though. A volunteer.
It sucked at times because the dishwasher would disappear on me.
So I got backed up on the back end of the machine,
and had to work both ends until he got back.
Which made the front end pile up,
because I had to stop and put stuff away while more was coming in.
Instead of just washing what was coming in.
Tomorrow is going to be crazy.
We have a morning shift, then we have to go do our resumes.
Then we have a fundraiser dinner thing.
It's going to be like 12-14 hours of stuff.
We have the weekend off, but as it is, haven't been sleeping enough.
Should be sleeping right now, but I'm going to try to go to bed early.
I have to prepare for this event so I have something nice to wear to it.
I rarely go to events and stuff.
It's not like my closet is brimming with 'nice' things to wear.
And it's not like I have the money to just go shopping.
I was upstairs doing laundry and people leave stuff up there
for people to take, free stuff. There book sets up there.
I grabbed 4 book sets. I want to try to sell them.
It would tie me over until next week, plus help me out of the hole.
Also, I have an idea for a website, but I want to build it first.
I also want to try to make it like an online community thing.
So people can creat a profile or whatever.
For Chefs to share their recipes and add videos and stuff
so that they can show and teach people how to make recipes.
There are a lot of cooking videos on youtube,
but it would be handy and helpful to have them all on one site.
Instead of only finding the ones that come up first or whatever.
It would be a lot of work, but it's an idea for a project.
I have a few ideas. I want to work on my tea shop, too.
I wanted to do it for a while but stuff keeps coming up.
I had all kinds of free time and now I don't seem to have any.
I basically go there, do my training, come home sleep,
study, sleep, and repeat. Not that I have much of a life anymore anyway.
This is why I haven't been blogging a lot lately.
Been soooooo tired and sleep deprived.
So about the lasagnas...
Both classes had to help the cook make 25 lasagnas.
And these are big lasagnas. It was chaos.
There was no order to it, it wasn't like an assembly line.
Everyone was scrambling to get it done as quickly as possible.
On of my team members was adding extra sauce to the ones she was working on.
The cook specifically said to just put 2 scoops of sauce and it already had those.
I told her that and she wasn't listening to me. She kept adding more.
We ran out of sauce for like 4 lasagnas.
Also she was slow when everyone was in a rush.
I'm really trying not to judge anyone,
but when everyone is whipping around, it's not time to doddle.
It was a staff member's birthday today and Chef got him a cake.
I noticed that it got quiet in the kitchen all of a sudden
and everyone was gathered at the back,
and then he comes up the stairs and they surprised him.
But nobody told me what was going on.
I realized something was going on, but nobody asked me to join.
They forgot about me in the dish pit.
A lot of the time they forget to dismiss us for our break.
Then the break is like half over by the time they say anything.
We only get 15 minutes to have our breakfast
and most of that is standing in line to get our breakfast.
It's barely enough time to eat it and not enough time to enjoy it.
The staff members get like 30 minutes.
That's what I heard anyway.
One of the staff members is a student with us.
He's the only one getting paid to be in the course.
And of course he's getting endorsed by Chef.
Kind of an unfair advantage. None of the rest are getting paid to be there.
But yeah, he has his kitchen duties or whatever, on top of taking the course.
Chef has the final say about who is in the course and who isn't.
At least one guy got the boot already and before we actually got started.
Because he was supposed to show up for the orientation and didn't.
He is very strict on this stuff. We can't just not show up.
Even when I thought I was going to be late, I called.
I wasn't late either time, but it is a good practice
to just let them know if I might be late. Just in case.
I often leave early, just in case.
A volunteer bought me a gingerale and I had to tell a staff
so that they didn't think that I took it out of the fridge.
I have to let them know everything like this.
Like I wanted to save my pear for later
because I didn't get enough time to finish my breakfast.
And I had to ask them if it was okay if I brought it with me.
So that they wouldn't think I was trying to steal it.
I don't want to take any chances after the fritata incident.
I get weird vibes from a lot of the staff.
They even avoid making eye contact with me.
Which just makes me feel even more uncomfortable around them.
Like I get that they don't like me, but none of them even know me
well enough to like or dislike me.
They don't like that I feel weird around them.
But I wouldn't feel weird around them if they just treated me like everyone else.
There are some guys there who I've gotten to know.
Who are fine around me. They say hi and talk with me.
Like I'm an actual human being. The rest like try to avoid me.
Or glare at me, or don't even look at me. It just gives me those vibes.
I try not to let it get to me, but I'm getting tired of it.
So I just mostly stick with the ones who treat me like I'm a person.
Because yeah, it feels weird around the ones who don't like me
for whatever reasons they have not to like me.
And it's mostly the females, actually.
Like the Sous Chef and a couple of the cooks.
And this is why I don't talk to the females as much.
I hang out with the guys because they actually talk to me.
And they don't treat me like I have some sort of a disease or something.
So I just try to stay out of their way or whatever.
I ended up sitting next to the Sous Chef at the Association meeting,
so didn't look at me or talk to me all night
and acted like she'd rather sit next to anyone other than me.
The thing is that I can't let this sh*t get to me.
So what. They don't like me. They don't have to like me.
I'm not there to make friends with them.
If that is how they want to act around me, I don't want to be friends anyway.
But it's like the more I notice it and it affects me, the more of it I get.
It's just hard not to notice it. I get it from Chef sometimes, too.
Like they all think they are so much better than me
and I'm so far beneath them or something. Whatever.
They can feel as superior as they want to.
I don't have to play those games. I'm just there to learn
and get as much experience out of this as I can.
Then move onto the next thing when it is over. That is all.
It doesn't do a lot to my self-esteem though,
but I have to keep working on that despite what anyone thinks of me.
They obviously have their opinions of me and that's fine.
I don't have to have an opinion about their opinions.
There is a project that I'm still kind of in the middle of,
but I haven't had very much time for it lately.
I have to work on it this weekend. I'll have to do some tonight, too.
I just haven't had much time for very much at all.
It's just been a blur or sleeping and training. Literally.
Plus, when my friend gets back from his vacation
he's going to be asking me if I've been watching the network videos.
I haven't been because I've been studying this kitchen stuff.
We have food safety training next week.
So I have to go over Chapter 2, then we have a quiz.
Every week they tell us stuff that would have been nice to know about.
I mean, in advance. So that we know what to expect.
It would be nice if we had to do the resume stuff on Monday
instead of tomorrow because we have to be up so early, and THEN go there,
and THEN go to the event thing like 3 or so hours after that.
So it's not like we have enough time to come home, get ready,
and then go out again. It's down town, though.
So it's not like we have to go across town for it. Thanfully.
And I really hope it doesn't f*cking snow tomorrow.
Everything is pretty much cleared up now.
Because we got rain and it melted most of it.
Then the plows just got rid of a lot of it.
People were complaining about the parking lot.
So they have one out there now.
So even if I wanted to sleep, which I kind of do...
...I'm just going to wait until later and try then.
I guess everyone gets to be in there for a week.
Why they didn't have me start on the Monday, I don't know.
So back at it tomorrow. It's not so bad, though.
It makes time go by extra fast. Twice as fast
because I'm always on the move and have to be fast in there to catch up.
We had some help today, though. A volunteer.
It sucked at times because the dishwasher would disappear on me.
So I got backed up on the back end of the machine,
and had to work both ends until he got back.
Which made the front end pile up,
because I had to stop and put stuff away while more was coming in.
Instead of just washing what was coming in.
Tomorrow is going to be crazy.
We have a morning shift, then we have to go do our resumes.
Then we have a fundraiser dinner thing.
It's going to be like 12-14 hours of stuff.
We have the weekend off, but as it is, haven't been sleeping enough.
Should be sleeping right now, but I'm going to try to go to bed early.
I have to prepare for this event so I have something nice to wear to it.
I rarely go to events and stuff.
It's not like my closet is brimming with 'nice' things to wear.
And it's not like I have the money to just go shopping.
I was upstairs doing laundry and people leave stuff up there
for people to take, free stuff. There book sets up there.
I grabbed 4 book sets. I want to try to sell them.
It would tie me over until next week, plus help me out of the hole.
Also, I have an idea for a website, but I want to build it first.
I also want to try to make it like an online community thing.
So people can creat a profile or whatever.
For Chefs to share their recipes and add videos and stuff
so that they can show and teach people how to make recipes.
There are a lot of cooking videos on youtube,
but it would be handy and helpful to have them all on one site.
Instead of only finding the ones that come up first or whatever.
It would be a lot of work, but it's an idea for a project.
I have a few ideas. I want to work on my tea shop, too.
I wanted to do it for a while but stuff keeps coming up.
I had all kinds of free time and now I don't seem to have any.
I basically go there, do my training, come home sleep,
study, sleep, and repeat. Not that I have much of a life anymore anyway.
This is why I haven't been blogging a lot lately.
Been soooooo tired and sleep deprived.
So about the lasagnas...
Both classes had to help the cook make 25 lasagnas.
And these are big lasagnas. It was chaos.
There was no order to it, it wasn't like an assembly line.
Everyone was scrambling to get it done as quickly as possible.
On of my team members was adding extra sauce to the ones she was working on.
The cook specifically said to just put 2 scoops of sauce and it already had those.
I told her that and she wasn't listening to me. She kept adding more.
We ran out of sauce for like 4 lasagnas.
Also she was slow when everyone was in a rush.
I'm really trying not to judge anyone,
but when everyone is whipping around, it's not time to doddle.
It was a staff member's birthday today and Chef got him a cake.
I noticed that it got quiet in the kitchen all of a sudden
and everyone was gathered at the back,
and then he comes up the stairs and they surprised him.
But nobody told me what was going on.
I realized something was going on, but nobody asked me to join.
They forgot about me in the dish pit.
A lot of the time they forget to dismiss us for our break.
Then the break is like half over by the time they say anything.
We only get 15 minutes to have our breakfast
and most of that is standing in line to get our breakfast.
It's barely enough time to eat it and not enough time to enjoy it.
The staff members get like 30 minutes.
That's what I heard anyway.
One of the staff members is a student with us.
He's the only one getting paid to be in the course.
And of course he's getting endorsed by Chef.
Kind of an unfair advantage. None of the rest are getting paid to be there.
But yeah, he has his kitchen duties or whatever, on top of taking the course.
Chef has the final say about who is in the course and who isn't.
At least one guy got the boot already and before we actually got started.
Because he was supposed to show up for the orientation and didn't.
He is very strict on this stuff. We can't just not show up.
Even when I thought I was going to be late, I called.
I wasn't late either time, but it is a good practice
to just let them know if I might be late. Just in case.
I often leave early, just in case.
A volunteer bought me a gingerale and I had to tell a staff
so that they didn't think that I took it out of the fridge.
I have to let them know everything like this.
Like I wanted to save my pear for later
because I didn't get enough time to finish my breakfast.
And I had to ask them if it was okay if I brought it with me.
So that they wouldn't think I was trying to steal it.
I don't want to take any chances after the fritata incident.
I get weird vibes from a lot of the staff.
They even avoid making eye contact with me.
Which just makes me feel even more uncomfortable around them.
Like I get that they don't like me, but none of them even know me
well enough to like or dislike me.
They don't like that I feel weird around them.
But I wouldn't feel weird around them if they just treated me like everyone else.
There are some guys there who I've gotten to know.
Who are fine around me. They say hi and talk with me.
Like I'm an actual human being. The rest like try to avoid me.
Or glare at me, or don't even look at me. It just gives me those vibes.
I try not to let it get to me, but I'm getting tired of it.
So I just mostly stick with the ones who treat me like I'm a person.
Because yeah, it feels weird around the ones who don't like me
for whatever reasons they have not to like me.
And it's mostly the females, actually.
Like the Sous Chef and a couple of the cooks.
And this is why I don't talk to the females as much.
I hang out with the guys because they actually talk to me.
And they don't treat me like I have some sort of a disease or something.
So I just try to stay out of their way or whatever.
I ended up sitting next to the Sous Chef at the Association meeting,
so didn't look at me or talk to me all night
and acted like she'd rather sit next to anyone other than me.
The thing is that I can't let this sh*t get to me.
So what. They don't like me. They don't have to like me.
I'm not there to make friends with them.
If that is how they want to act around me, I don't want to be friends anyway.
But it's like the more I notice it and it affects me, the more of it I get.
It's just hard not to notice it. I get it from Chef sometimes, too.
Like they all think they are so much better than me
and I'm so far beneath them or something. Whatever.
They can feel as superior as they want to.
I don't have to play those games. I'm just there to learn
and get as much experience out of this as I can.
Then move onto the next thing when it is over. That is all.
It doesn't do a lot to my self-esteem though,
but I have to keep working on that despite what anyone thinks of me.
They obviously have their opinions of me and that's fine.
I don't have to have an opinion about their opinions.
There is a project that I'm still kind of in the middle of,
but I haven't had very much time for it lately.
I have to work on it this weekend. I'll have to do some tonight, too.
I just haven't had much time for very much at all.
It's just been a blur or sleeping and training. Literally.
Plus, when my friend gets back from his vacation
he's going to be asking me if I've been watching the network videos.
I haven't been because I've been studying this kitchen stuff.
We have food safety training next week.
So I have to go over Chapter 2, then we have a quiz.
Every week they tell us stuff that would have been nice to know about.
I mean, in advance. So that we know what to expect.
It would be nice if we had to do the resume stuff on Monday
instead of tomorrow because we have to be up so early, and THEN go there,
and THEN go to the event thing like 3 or so hours after that.
So it's not like we have enough time to come home, get ready,
and then go out again. It's down town, though.
So it's not like we have to go across town for it. Thanfully.
And I really hope it doesn't f*cking snow tomorrow.
Everything is pretty much cleared up now.
Because we got rain and it melted most of it.
Then the plows just got rid of a lot of it.
People were complaining about the parking lot.
So they have one out there now.
So even if I wanted to sleep, which I kind of do...
...I'm just going to wait until later and try then.
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