Been watching some conspiracy type videos.
About how there are beings that are controling us through our minds
and apparently the moon is a satelite.
I remember that being in the lyrics of a song, actually.
I think clues are all around us.
You know how you go to sleep listening to something
and then you have a dream about what you're listening to while you are asleep?
I think it's kind of like that. That all of this could just be a dream
and none of us have 'woken up' yet.
Maybe a few, who have control over their own minds.
Who are not running on any programs based on what we were taught.
It's just such a difference between the age of the philosophers and now.
Why such a huge difference between how they thought then
and how we tend to think now?
It's sad that some don't seem to have an original thought.
All these messages of wisdom that can help free our minds
just... Maybe lost to most of us because of human apathy.
Is there a reason that humankind doesn't seem to care anymore?
How we just give up so easily?
"I want to get to know you, now I don't"
Or "I have enough friends." Or whatever it is...
Someone was saying in the comments that awareness
is more painful than unawareness. To which most agreed. How can they be sure?
If unawareness is related to apathy, which is more painful?
There's a story in the book I'm reading about a monk and a samarai warrior.
The warrior says to the monk: "Tell me the difference between Heaven and Hell."
The monk says: "Why should I tell you? You're a fool! A waste of my time!"
The warrior draws his sword and says: "I could kill you for your insulence!"
The monk says: "THAT is Hell."
The warrior understands that he's saying that Hell is being controlled by
our emotions and acting on impulses.
The warrior thanks the monk for the lesson, to which he replies:
"THAT is Heaven."
The recognition and appreciation of the lesson.
Therefore: Unawareness is Hell. Awareness is Heaven.
I put myself through hell all the times I felt so bad that I wanted to die.
And I actively planned my own death on more than one occasion.
Everytime I went to such an emotional extreme that I was controlled
by my own reactions to the emotional extremism. That is Hell.
Well a version of Hell... There are others.
Being aware that I can have a poitive effect on my own mind,
And that I can raise and elevate my mental and emotional states...
That's closer to Heaven because I'm aware that I no longer have to be chained
to wanting or needing the things I thought I wanted and needed
for the happiness I thought I could 'get' from those things.
The things I'm learning are bringing me closer and closer to awareness.
I don't have to feel so bad that I want to die.
I don't have to feel like I have nothing to live for.
I don't have to feel like there is no point for my existence.
Being aware that I don't have to feel like that is a level of freedom
that I didn't have when I felt that way.
When I thought the thoughts that fueled those emotions.
This is why I write these things. Because once more people see
that they don't have to feel so bad that they want to die,
they will have a whole new level of freedom, too.
But when I felt that way, I couldn't see. I was that unaware.
Just because I know things that I didn't know before
doesn't mean that I know everything. I just know more than I used to.
I know that there are lots of people still in the mental state I was in.
And in even worse mental states than I was in.
Not that I'm in the best mental state, just a better one now.
It's like when we go to sleep at night,
we're somewhat conscious that we're unconscious.
Except if we were completely aware that we were dreaming
we'd have more control of our dreams.
Which is like how we are when we are awake.
If we were aware of that we were unaware,
we can increase our awareness.
I'm going to try to sleep now.
In the last dream I remember, I 'made' my step-father angry
with something I said and can't remember what it was.
He was chasing me throughout the house in his rage.
I remember throwing a muffin at him which 'made' him angrier.
Then I woke up....
This is my hope for the next couple of years....
"Then I woke up."
About how there are beings that are controling us through our minds
and apparently the moon is a satelite.
I remember that being in the lyrics of a song, actually.
I think clues are all around us.
You know how you go to sleep listening to something
and then you have a dream about what you're listening to while you are asleep?
I think it's kind of like that. That all of this could just be a dream
and none of us have 'woken up' yet.
Maybe a few, who have control over their own minds.
Who are not running on any programs based on what we were taught.
It's just such a difference between the age of the philosophers and now.
Why such a huge difference between how they thought then
and how we tend to think now?
It's sad that some don't seem to have an original thought.
All these messages of wisdom that can help free our minds
just... Maybe lost to most of us because of human apathy.
Is there a reason that humankind doesn't seem to care anymore?
How we just give up so easily?
"I want to get to know you, now I don't"
Or "I have enough friends." Or whatever it is...
Someone was saying in the comments that awareness
is more painful than unawareness. To which most agreed. How can they be sure?
If unawareness is related to apathy, which is more painful?
There's a story in the book I'm reading about a monk and a samarai warrior.
The warrior says to the monk: "Tell me the difference between Heaven and Hell."
The monk says: "Why should I tell you? You're a fool! A waste of my time!"
The warrior draws his sword and says: "I could kill you for your insulence!"
The monk says: "THAT is Hell."
The warrior understands that he's saying that Hell is being controlled by
our emotions and acting on impulses.
The warrior thanks the monk for the lesson, to which he replies:
"THAT is Heaven."
The recognition and appreciation of the lesson.
Therefore: Unawareness is Hell. Awareness is Heaven.
I put myself through hell all the times I felt so bad that I wanted to die.
And I actively planned my own death on more than one occasion.
Everytime I went to such an emotional extreme that I was controlled
by my own reactions to the emotional extremism. That is Hell.
Well a version of Hell... There are others.
Being aware that I can have a poitive effect on my own mind,
And that I can raise and elevate my mental and emotional states...
That's closer to Heaven because I'm aware that I no longer have to be chained
to wanting or needing the things I thought I wanted and needed
for the happiness I thought I could 'get' from those things.
The things I'm learning are bringing me closer and closer to awareness.
I don't have to feel so bad that I want to die.
I don't have to feel like I have nothing to live for.
I don't have to feel like there is no point for my existence.
Being aware that I don't have to feel like that is a level of freedom
that I didn't have when I felt that way.
When I thought the thoughts that fueled those emotions.
This is why I write these things. Because once more people see
that they don't have to feel so bad that they want to die,
they will have a whole new level of freedom, too.
But when I felt that way, I couldn't see. I was that unaware.
Just because I know things that I didn't know before
doesn't mean that I know everything. I just know more than I used to.
I know that there are lots of people still in the mental state I was in.
And in even worse mental states than I was in.
Not that I'm in the best mental state, just a better one now.
It's like when we go to sleep at night,
we're somewhat conscious that we're unconscious.
Except if we were completely aware that we were dreaming
we'd have more control of our dreams.
Which is like how we are when we are awake.
If we were aware of that we were unaware,
we can increase our awareness.
I'm going to try to sleep now.
In the last dream I remember, I 'made' my step-father angry
with something I said and can't remember what it was.
He was chasing me throughout the house in his rage.
I remember throwing a muffin at him which 'made' him angrier.
Then I woke up....
This is my hope for the next couple of years....
"Then I woke up."
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