The Benefit Of The Doubt

I'm going to be going out soon, but before that,
I want to write about a dream I had.

Hadn't slept well last night, so I woke up early and did my morning ritual.
Then I got a text that my plans for today are cancelled, which is totally fine.
I know that things come up, all the time. I've actually come to expect that now.
It's actually rare that my plans go through.

Anyway, my dream was about that.
My mind likes to make stuff up. Drawing from prior experiences.

The prior experience being that the last guy even remotely 'interested'
in 'getting to know me,' there was something he wasn't telling me.
Some red flags kept coming up and he was turning getting together
into some sort of fantasy thing. Which was odd to say the least.

So I was texting back and forth with the dude and he was stuck on one topic.
He wanted to make a wager, that if I beat him at wrestling
that we'd make a bet as to what I would get as a reward.
And it seemed like the only thing he wanted to talk about.
He seemed like he wanted to do this at my place, not his.
He was very sure of this. Either that or a hotel.
Which was the first red flag. But he carried on flirting with me.

Then something told me that he was hiding something.
That he wasn't being honest with me so I gave him a chance to confess.
Sure enough, he tells me he's 'involved.'
So this is the experience my mind was drawing from for this dream.
And it was something similar to this.
Only a bit deeper with other layers to it.

That the person I was suupposed to see today cancelled
because of a 'prior commitment.' I'm pretty sure that's not the case,
and yeah I want to give people the benefit of the doubt.
Because I know that not everyone is hiding something from me.

Let's just say that I am far from pleased when someone tries
to make me the 'other woman' and isn't straight with me from the start.
I told the guy from my prior experience, that I don't mess with married men.
I even alluded to that a few times before I gave him the chance to confess.
Given him the chance to tell me if he was single or not
before he continued to flirt with me. Before we ever met.
We didn't meet in person.
It would have been upsetting if we had, then hit it off,
then I found out that he was 'involved.'

All I'm saying is my mind likes to play tricks on me.
And that I do still give people the benefit of the doubt.
I give them multiple chances to confess.
I still don't get why I meet guys that still hide things from me.
Not saying this guy is one of those guys.
Not saying every guy is going to be one of those guys.
But I am aware that they do exist so that's why I had that dream.
I'm pretty sure he cancelled for the exact reason he said he had to.
And like I said, I really don't mind that he did.
I can take rain checks. Just a bit ironic that it's raining today.