Today's quote is about planting seeds.
"Don't judge the day by the harvest you reap, but the seeds you plant."
- Robert Louis Stevenson
I've heard someone talk about the mental garden.
Like cultivating our minds. Weeding out the crap that doesn't need to be there.
Planting seeds of positivity, etc.
Today, I was going to renew my bus pass.
The machine that loads my card wasn't working.
I said, "It will." Then the lady and I were talking about it.
In terms of how it will work. It did. I knew it would.
I wasn't worried about it. I'm practicing being optimistic.
It's not a strong point for me, but I've known for a long time
that optimism is optimal.
I just struggled to cultivate it.
Because I was really struggling with my perspective,
with my perception and with my beliefs.
With all this residual crap that has been lingering far too long.
The seeds you plant can grow in unexpected ways.
Some produce fruit, some are weeds, but that's for you to figure out
before you plant them.
There was someone saying that we can't plant an apple seed
and expect an orange tree to grow...
Yet, that's what we often do with our thoughts.
"What we focus on determines what we miss."
If we focus on a certain outcome, like expecting something
that isn't even possible, we're stacking the cards against ourselves.
Because we are setting ourselves up for disappointment.
"I got an apple tree! I wanted an orange tree!"
Well... What seed did you plant?
It's like planting pumpkin seeds and expecting to grow watermelons...
We know that pumpkins and watermelons come from completely different seeds.
So if we want to grow pumpkins, we need pumpkin seeds.
If we want to grow watermelons, we need watermelon seeds.
If we want to see certain results, we have to plant the seeds for those results.
Otherwise, the seeds we plant determines what will be grown.
This is why I want to cultivate my mind more.
And make the effort to change my mind about things.
And to change my thought patterns, change how I look at things, etc.
Because otherwise, I'm going to keep growing pumpkins
when I actually wanted watermelons.
Let's talk about stacking the deck...
We can stack the deck in our favor, or we can stack it against ourselves.
Depending on certain things, but mostly by what we do,
and what we refrain from doing.
Been doing more 'spiritual' thinking and it has been helping me.
Using my imagination more to imagine how certain things would feel.
Trying to reach for those feelings. Of satisfaction, excitement, etc.
"What if... (whatever) happened?"
"What would (whatever) feel like?"
Also been talking to myself in terms of healing.
Thanking myself for healing. Feeling relief that I am healing.
Looking for things that I appreciate. Focusing on these things.
Instead of focusing on my fears.
I was feeling some fear and anxiety today.
I was feeling in a panic mode, so I had to reassure myself.
I had to find my way to ease out of those feelings, but I did.
I joined a gift exchange thing. I got a gift a couple days ago.
It's a moon lamp thing. I really like it.
It's a plastic globe thing, that is textures with 'crators'
and it sits in a wooden stand. It charges on a usb. It's awesome.
It's a secret sister santa thing.
Someone in Alberta got my name and sent me it.
I got someone from Nova Scotia. I made a scarf thing.
I have to send it soon.
I want to wait, because I want to hold onto the money I have left.
But I have to send it anyway. I also have to send my cousin some pictures.
I'm going to have a tight Christmas.
A part of me wishes I took that job offer, but...
I really do not want to be a cleaner forever.
I want to gain experience in another field. In something else.
Just because I already have experience in that field,
doesn't mean that's where I want to stay.
Besides, they didn't give me enough notice... "You start tonight!"
At least give me a couple of days...
Especially if it's an overnight position. So I can transition.
Instead of having to stay awake for like 24+ hours...
Because that's ridiculous. My body doesn't like that.
Plus all the chemicals....
Anyway, I'm going to stick to my project and see what comes of it.
I know I've has many projects, etc. I didn't stick with them.
Even when I was starting to see some results.
I lost the momentum and directed my energy elsewhere.
Plus, I got to some pretty rough patches emotionally...
I still struggle with my emotions... But... At least I know that I do.
And the reason being that I'm not planting the right seeds
in my emotional garden. Or in the garden of my mind,
or the garden of my heart, or the garden of my soul.
I just kept planting seeds in there, not knowing they were weeds.
Not realizing that there are better seeds to plant in those gardens.
That I can cultivate it and help it grow, etc.
As those seeds grow, I will grow,
and as I grow, the futher I can go.
In pretty much any direction I choose to.
But I have to build my own paths, find my own ways,
Keep stacking the deck in my favor. Constantly.
Anyway, I have some stuff to do.
"Don't judge the day by the harvest you reap, but the seeds you plant."
- Robert Louis Stevenson
I've heard someone talk about the mental garden.
Like cultivating our minds. Weeding out the crap that doesn't need to be there.
Planting seeds of positivity, etc.
Today, I was going to renew my bus pass.
The machine that loads my card wasn't working.
I said, "It will." Then the lady and I were talking about it.
In terms of how it will work. It did. I knew it would.
I wasn't worried about it. I'm practicing being optimistic.
It's not a strong point for me, but I've known for a long time
that optimism is optimal.
I just struggled to cultivate it.
Because I was really struggling with my perspective,
with my perception and with my beliefs.
With all this residual crap that has been lingering far too long.
The seeds you plant can grow in unexpected ways.
Some produce fruit, some are weeds, but that's for you to figure out
before you plant them.
There was someone saying that we can't plant an apple seed
and expect an orange tree to grow...
Yet, that's what we often do with our thoughts.
"What we focus on determines what we miss."
If we focus on a certain outcome, like expecting something
that isn't even possible, we're stacking the cards against ourselves.
Because we are setting ourselves up for disappointment.
"I got an apple tree! I wanted an orange tree!"
Well... What seed did you plant?
It's like planting pumpkin seeds and expecting to grow watermelons...
We know that pumpkins and watermelons come from completely different seeds.
So if we want to grow pumpkins, we need pumpkin seeds.
If we want to grow watermelons, we need watermelon seeds.
If we want to see certain results, we have to plant the seeds for those results.
Otherwise, the seeds we plant determines what will be grown.
This is why I want to cultivate my mind more.
And make the effort to change my mind about things.
And to change my thought patterns, change how I look at things, etc.
Because otherwise, I'm going to keep growing pumpkins
when I actually wanted watermelons.
Let's talk about stacking the deck...
We can stack the deck in our favor, or we can stack it against ourselves.
Depending on certain things, but mostly by what we do,
and what we refrain from doing.
Been doing more 'spiritual' thinking and it has been helping me.
Using my imagination more to imagine how certain things would feel.
Trying to reach for those feelings. Of satisfaction, excitement, etc.
"What if... (whatever) happened?"
"What would (whatever) feel like?"
Also been talking to myself in terms of healing.
Thanking myself for healing. Feeling relief that I am healing.
Looking for things that I appreciate. Focusing on these things.
Instead of focusing on my fears.
I was feeling some fear and anxiety today.
I was feeling in a panic mode, so I had to reassure myself.
I had to find my way to ease out of those feelings, but I did.
I joined a gift exchange thing. I got a gift a couple days ago.
It's a moon lamp thing. I really like it.
It's a plastic globe thing, that is textures with 'crators'
and it sits in a wooden stand. It charges on a usb. It's awesome.
It's a secret sister santa thing.
Someone in Alberta got my name and sent me it.
I got someone from Nova Scotia. I made a scarf thing.
I have to send it soon.
I want to wait, because I want to hold onto the money I have left.
But I have to send it anyway. I also have to send my cousin some pictures.
I'm going to have a tight Christmas.
A part of me wishes I took that job offer, but...
I really do not want to be a cleaner forever.
I want to gain experience in another field. In something else.
Just because I already have experience in that field,
doesn't mean that's where I want to stay.
Besides, they didn't give me enough notice... "You start tonight!"
At least give me a couple of days...
Especially if it's an overnight position. So I can transition.
Instead of having to stay awake for like 24+ hours...
Because that's ridiculous. My body doesn't like that.
Plus all the chemicals....
Anyway, I'm going to stick to my project and see what comes of it.
I know I've has many projects, etc. I didn't stick with them.
Even when I was starting to see some results.
I lost the momentum and directed my energy elsewhere.
Plus, I got to some pretty rough patches emotionally...
I still struggle with my emotions... But... At least I know that I do.
And the reason being that I'm not planting the right seeds
in my emotional garden. Or in the garden of my mind,
or the garden of my heart, or the garden of my soul.
I just kept planting seeds in there, not knowing they were weeds.
Not realizing that there are better seeds to plant in those gardens.
That I can cultivate it and help it grow, etc.
As those seeds grow, I will grow,
and as I grow, the futher I can go.
In pretty much any direction I choose to.
But I have to build my own paths, find my own ways,
Keep stacking the deck in my favor. Constantly.
Anyway, I have some stuff to do.
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