My mind's still going when my body is calling for rest.
I keep thinking about some recent events and stuff.
Probably because I'm used to feeling a certain way at night
and my mind keeps looking for the thoughts that produce those emotions.
Although, I was feeling alright earlier, thinking about something else.
Been thinking about using my imagination more
to imagine certain things since the mind doesn't know the difference
between what we are thinking about and experiencing.
I see evidence of this when I'm having an emotional reaction to thoughts
about things that bother me. I feel as though I'm experiencing those things.
I get so engaged that I pretty much enact it. It's crazy,
but in a way, it is good to know about this. I do it without thinking about it,
but now I can think more about why I do this.
If I can get that engaged with my thoughts, I can get engaged with my imagination.
Yeah, it sounds kind of childish or whatever, but it is an experimental thing.
I want to observe how I react emotionally to it.
I can imagine certain scenarios I would prefer to find myself in.
I can imagine how I would like to see myself becoming in the future.
Things of this nature. Projections even.
Imagining receiving my chance at redemption.
Setting the whole entire scene. Setting my mood through that.
Instead of reacting to thoughts of my past, reacting to thoughts of my future.
But creating my 'visions' of the future the way I want to see them.
Sometimes I wonder if the things that happened in my premonition
happened because I had the premonition or if they were going to happen anyway.
I can see some things so vividly and have vivid dreams.
When I've gotten mad in dreams, I've woken up punching my bed haha.
It's a thought/psychology experiment and I think it will work.
Can't hurt to try it.
I've been imagining making amends to someone.
Getting to speak with them again.
I've been imagining this upcoming trip.
I've been imagining feeling so much better.
Imagining what my dream job looks like.
Those are good places to start.
I keep thinking about some recent events and stuff.
Probably because I'm used to feeling a certain way at night
and my mind keeps looking for the thoughts that produce those emotions.
Although, I was feeling alright earlier, thinking about something else.
Been thinking about using my imagination more
to imagine certain things since the mind doesn't know the difference
between what we are thinking about and experiencing.
I see evidence of this when I'm having an emotional reaction to thoughts
about things that bother me. I feel as though I'm experiencing those things.
I get so engaged that I pretty much enact it. It's crazy,
but in a way, it is good to know about this. I do it without thinking about it,
but now I can think more about why I do this.
If I can get that engaged with my thoughts, I can get engaged with my imagination.
Yeah, it sounds kind of childish or whatever, but it is an experimental thing.
I want to observe how I react emotionally to it.
I can imagine certain scenarios I would prefer to find myself in.
I can imagine how I would like to see myself becoming in the future.
Things of this nature. Projections even.
Imagining receiving my chance at redemption.
Setting the whole entire scene. Setting my mood through that.
Instead of reacting to thoughts of my past, reacting to thoughts of my future.
But creating my 'visions' of the future the way I want to see them.
Sometimes I wonder if the things that happened in my premonition
happened because I had the premonition or if they were going to happen anyway.
I can see some things so vividly and have vivid dreams.
When I've gotten mad in dreams, I've woken up punching my bed haha.
It's a thought/psychology experiment and I think it will work.
Can't hurt to try it.
I've been imagining making amends to someone.
Getting to speak with them again.
I've been imagining this upcoming trip.
I've been imagining feeling so much better.
Imagining what my dream job looks like.
Those are good places to start.
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