I spoke with my mother's cousin tonight.
I want to go to my mother's Aunt's memorial service.
As it turns out, it will be on my birthday.
So I won't be alone on my birthday, but I'll be going to a funeral.
But I've wanted to go back to Niagara Falls for a while now.
It's beautiful there. I haven't been in the winter before.
As it turns out Auntie had fallen a couple of times,
her heart was giving out on her.
At 105 years old, there's not a lot that can be done.
Plus, she was giving up and she knew she was near the end.
She hit her head a couple of times.
Once in the front (10 stitches) and once in the back.
I told my mother that I'm going. I asked her not to tell my aunt.
When I wanted to take my Grandmother to see her sisters,
my Grandmother told my aunt that I was going to take her,
then my aunt went ahead and took her so that I couldn't.
When one of my cousins found out that I was going to visit Auntie,
she went and got there before I did, but Auntie didn't know who she was.
None of them had anything to do with her. I wrote to her.
She knew who I was from my letters. She remembered me.
Right up until the end, she remembered me.
I brought my son to visit with her once. A couple of years ago.
My mother said that she'll try to go to the funeral
and she said my aunt will probably go. I am getting anxiety at the thought of it.
Because I know my mom is still pissed off about the dolls.
We were supposed to get a porcelain doll from Auntie's collection,
but someone sold them. Probably didn't know they were supposed to go to us.
I know my mom is still pissed about that.
And I don't need her bringing it up.
Sure it would have been nice to get one, that was supposed to go to us,
but they are just dolls. Not the end of the world.
Things are just things. No big deal.
It'll be nice to get out of the city for a little while.
Even if only to go to a funeral
and it will be nice to spend my birthday in Niagara Falls.
There are a couple of diners there I really enjoy.
It's just sad under the circumstances.
Maybe my mother won't go, I don't know.
It's far, and I can't see her traveling all that far. We'll see.
I'm just going to release the outcome of this.
I'm going to release these feelings of anxiety, any expectations (good or bad),
Anyway, I've got some more work done on my project today.
I found out how to make the box appear when I click the link.
I also set up all the boxes for the lessons, well got them set up to be set up.
I got the close button to close it.
I want to make a progress report thing,
so that when they click 'done' it tells them how much they've done,
and how much they have left percentage wise.
There's a lot to do still, but it's okay. I'm learning as I go.
There's still a long way to go. Lots of pages to be built.
I'm just drafting up the templates and doing some designing stuff.
I have yet to put the content in. I have to make videos etc.
I have a bunch of plr stuff (private label rights) to put in there.
I might get some more to add in there, I don't know yet.
I'll see when I get to that point. I'm not there, yet.
There's a lot to do still. A lot. For any of this to work, there's more parts to it.
I want to build something really decent. Decent enough for people to want it.
Decent enough to do a launch at some point.
I've never done a product launch before or even built my own system like this.
This is really new to me and something I've wanted to do for a long time.
Just something I have no experience with. So I have to play it by ear
and just see what happens. Really, I going to release it all, too.
It's just something to work on and experience to gain.
That's all it is. Whatever happens with it, happens.
I'm not worried about it.
I want to go to my mother's Aunt's memorial service.
As it turns out, it will be on my birthday.
So I won't be alone on my birthday, but I'll be going to a funeral.
But I've wanted to go back to Niagara Falls for a while now.
It's beautiful there. I haven't been in the winter before.
As it turns out Auntie had fallen a couple of times,
her heart was giving out on her.
At 105 years old, there's not a lot that can be done.
Plus, she was giving up and she knew she was near the end.
She hit her head a couple of times.
Once in the front (10 stitches) and once in the back.
I told my mother that I'm going. I asked her not to tell my aunt.
When I wanted to take my Grandmother to see her sisters,
my Grandmother told my aunt that I was going to take her,
then my aunt went ahead and took her so that I couldn't.
When one of my cousins found out that I was going to visit Auntie,
she went and got there before I did, but Auntie didn't know who she was.
None of them had anything to do with her. I wrote to her.
She knew who I was from my letters. She remembered me.
Right up until the end, she remembered me.
I brought my son to visit with her once. A couple of years ago.
My mother said that she'll try to go to the funeral
and she said my aunt will probably go. I am getting anxiety at the thought of it.
Because I know my mom is still pissed off about the dolls.
We were supposed to get a porcelain doll from Auntie's collection,
but someone sold them. Probably didn't know they were supposed to go to us.
I know my mom is still pissed about that.
And I don't need her bringing it up.
Sure it would have been nice to get one, that was supposed to go to us,
but they are just dolls. Not the end of the world.
Things are just things. No big deal.
It'll be nice to get out of the city for a little while.
Even if only to go to a funeral
and it will be nice to spend my birthday in Niagara Falls.
There are a couple of diners there I really enjoy.
It's just sad under the circumstances.
Maybe my mother won't go, I don't know.
It's far, and I can't see her traveling all that far. We'll see.
I'm just going to release the outcome of this.
I'm going to release these feelings of anxiety, any expectations (good or bad),
Anyway, I've got some more work done on my project today.
I found out how to make the box appear when I click the link.
I also set up all the boxes for the lessons, well got them set up to be set up.
I got the close button to close it.
I want to make a progress report thing,
so that when they click 'done' it tells them how much they've done,
and how much they have left percentage wise.
There's a lot to do still, but it's okay. I'm learning as I go.
There's still a long way to go. Lots of pages to be built.
I'm just drafting up the templates and doing some designing stuff.
I have yet to put the content in. I have to make videos etc.
I have a bunch of plr stuff (private label rights) to put in there.
I might get some more to add in there, I don't know yet.
I'll see when I get to that point. I'm not there, yet.
There's a lot to do still. A lot. For any of this to work, there's more parts to it.
I want to build something really decent. Decent enough for people to want it.
Decent enough to do a launch at some point.
I've never done a product launch before or even built my own system like this.
This is really new to me and something I've wanted to do for a long time.
Just something I have no experience with. So I have to play it by ear
and just see what happens. Really, I going to release it all, too.
It's just something to work on and experience to gain.
That's all it is. Whatever happens with it, happens.
I'm not worried about it.
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