The Difference Between

So things are progressing, I guess.
I will be working more. Temporarily.
They want me to replace someone, somewhere.
I said I would for a couple of months to see how it goes.
It's not far from the place where I'm already working.
I'm just not sure if I will have the energy to last that long doing both.
Plus, the way my schedule is now, I have some time to do my stuff.
Which has been a lot of coding stuff.
I'm attempting to build a website. My first ever.
Pretty much from scratch. No Blogger templates,
no templates of any kind. No Wordpress.
So far just html and css. No java, jquery, php, yet.
So I have some stuff done, but it isn't functional, yet.
I wanted to do it this way to see how to do it and to see if I could do it.
It can be pretty challenging at times. Because it is new to me.
I've stayed awake many a night already.
Just working on the first page, and a couple popups.
It can take days for me just to figure out one thing! Ugh!
But when I do figure it out, and make it look proper, I'm happy.
That is when I feel proud of myself.
Although I've only got the first page, I feel like I've come a long way.
I made a navigation bar with links that have hover effects.
I made the links summon popups. With forms on them.
...And that is pretty much all I have so far... But it is a start.


Anyway, I got some tea that has sayings on the tag on the bag.
One was: "The difference between a flower and a weed is a judgement."
The thing is that although I really want to be judgement free,
I find myself making judgements all the time.
We are taught by society and by those who influence us to judge
and to what degree. I've known a lot of judgemental people in my life.
One way that I judge is: things that bother me.
They bother me because I'm judging those things as being annoying
or being a hindrance, or being whatever.
All those things are just things. They are either conditional or non-conditional.
The conditions are based on my judgements about them.
"I like this because.... I don't like that because...."
Then the more I judge something, the more it bothers me.
The more it bothers me, the more it irritates me.
To the point it becomes intolerable.
It's actually hard not to make judgements.
Especially when we have been doing it since we learned how to do it.
When we were very young. Probably taught them by our parents.
I mean judgements in the sense of discrimination.
Like discrimination v.s discernment.

Discernment is the ability to judge well.

The hopes are that the less I judge, the more I will accept.
The more I accept, the more I can see past things that bother me.
Or not even see the things that bother me.
Or have nothing or not much of anything bother me.
Or affect me negatively in any way.