I just got home from work. I was really hungry so I'm also having breakfast. Sleep is on the agenda today. Maybe go to that seminar tonight. Not sure yet. Haven't been feeling the greatest since Saturday. I'm thinking it's the weather changes. From -6 C to +16 C in a couple days... No wonder people are getting sick.
Last night wasn't so bad at work. Been sweeping and mopping stairwells the last month or so. Could be worse. A lot worse. This morning, I was talking to a lady on the Day Shift. She jokingly said that "we're living the dream," and I told her that it could be so much worse. MOST of the people at my work came to Canada for a better life from all over the world. I'm pretty sure that THEY think they ARE living the dream. So I think about that when I think that my job sucks or anything about my life sucks... IT COULD BE WORSE!!! REMEMBER THAT!!!
I may not be where I should be, but THANKFULLY, I'm NOT where I used to be!!!
A matter of seeing things differently. Even if you have to force yourself, until you don't have to force yourself anymore. That is what I have been doing, forcing myself to do certain things that I WANT to just DO without even really thinking about them.
Someone asked me recently, "Abby, do you think you are taking on too much?"
"Yes, in some ways..." Even if it is too much, to me, it will never be enough. I keep wanting to push myself harder, faster, more and more. And MORE!!! But.... My heart... Been having issues with it. Most of the night at work, felt like I was on the verge of a heart attack. So less caffeine. A bit more relaxing, more sleep, healthier diet... I have been doing some cardio, but have to do it regularly. I find that around the time I usually go jogging or skipping, my heart starts beating faster. It seems to be used to the extra beating or beating harder.
I was telling one of my friends about my job at the Hotel. About my breaks up on the roof. 17 storeys above the street. I looked over the edge one night. Just to see how high it is. It was scary.
Things are... Well, okay, but not going at the pace I'd like them to go. I would like to get things I have been working on, finished. But they are things that cannot (should not) be rushed. Being 4 times as productive sounds awesome. I guess I'd have to work 4 times harder, though. I'd like to think that I am working pretty hard, but feel like I'm not getting as many results as I'd like. I am getting some. There is some progress being made.
A friend of mine requested that I take 7 days to learn as much as I can about tarot cards and such, then I'm supposed to hit him up to do a reading for him over Skype.
Was funny when my friend was giving me dating advice... I hadn't asked him for it. So I don't know how that even happened. Just found it laughable because I told him more than a few times that I'm not looking and don't give a flying f*ck if guys 'notice' me. He was saying how I 'hide' my figure. Damn right I do! I have lost a lot of weight. Over 30 pounds. Maybe 40+. Everyone at work has been telling me that they noticed how much weight I lost. I'm not trying to. I just wanted to get into better shape. Had jogged for a few months. I only quit because the snow will be here any day now and I have another fitness goal.
I want to do something about my fitness. It won't happen overnight. Just another thing to work on. On TOP of the studying, and the project stuff (that I had to put on hold to study).
What the heck?! I'm still awake?! I really must be crazy... G'night. G'day. Whatever it is for you. Just hope whatever it is, is good.
I saw something at work last night. It said:
"Learn from yesterday,
Live for today,
HOPE for tomorrow."
Last night wasn't so bad at work. Been sweeping and mopping stairwells the last month or so. Could be worse. A lot worse. This morning, I was talking to a lady on the Day Shift. She jokingly said that "we're living the dream," and I told her that it could be so much worse. MOST of the people at my work came to Canada for a better life from all over the world. I'm pretty sure that THEY think they ARE living the dream. So I think about that when I think that my job sucks or anything about my life sucks... IT COULD BE WORSE!!! REMEMBER THAT!!!
I may not be where I should be, but THANKFULLY, I'm NOT where I used to be!!!
A matter of seeing things differently. Even if you have to force yourself, until you don't have to force yourself anymore. That is what I have been doing, forcing myself to do certain things that I WANT to just DO without even really thinking about them.
Someone asked me recently, "Abby, do you think you are taking on too much?"
"Yes, in some ways..." Even if it is too much, to me, it will never be enough. I keep wanting to push myself harder, faster, more and more. And MORE!!! But.... My heart... Been having issues with it. Most of the night at work, felt like I was on the verge of a heart attack. So less caffeine. A bit more relaxing, more sleep, healthier diet... I have been doing some cardio, but have to do it regularly. I find that around the time I usually go jogging or skipping, my heart starts beating faster. It seems to be used to the extra beating or beating harder.
I was telling one of my friends about my job at the Hotel. About my breaks up on the roof. 17 storeys above the street. I looked over the edge one night. Just to see how high it is. It was scary.
Things are... Well, okay, but not going at the pace I'd like them to go. I would like to get things I have been working on, finished. But they are things that cannot (should not) be rushed. Being 4 times as productive sounds awesome. I guess I'd have to work 4 times harder, though. I'd like to think that I am working pretty hard, but feel like I'm not getting as many results as I'd like. I am getting some. There is some progress being made.
A friend of mine requested that I take 7 days to learn as much as I can about tarot cards and such, then I'm supposed to hit him up to do a reading for him over Skype.
Was funny when my friend was giving me dating advice... I hadn't asked him for it. So I don't know how that even happened. Just found it laughable because I told him more than a few times that I'm not looking and don't give a flying f*ck if guys 'notice' me. He was saying how I 'hide' my figure. Damn right I do! I have lost a lot of weight. Over 30 pounds. Maybe 40+. Everyone at work has been telling me that they noticed how much weight I lost. I'm not trying to. I just wanted to get into better shape. Had jogged for a few months. I only quit because the snow will be here any day now and I have another fitness goal.
I want to do something about my fitness. It won't happen overnight. Just another thing to work on. On TOP of the studying, and the project stuff (that I had to put on hold to study).
What the heck?! I'm still awake?! I really must be crazy... G'night. G'day. Whatever it is for you. Just hope whatever it is, is good.
I saw something at work last night. It said:
"Learn from yesterday,
Live for today,
HOPE for tomorrow."
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