Been doing a lot of thinking lately. About a lot of things. Had counselling today and we talked about how socialization is beneficial and how isolation can be destructive. I am used to being isolated. It feels like being insulated. Therefore, most times I am comfortable being alone. I've always been a loner. Capricorns are the loners of the zodiac. I'll explain why.
Capricorns are extremely guarded. We never let our guard down. Ever. Capricorns are extremely cautious and wary of other people. It becomes very difficult to know them. Sometimes they are so quiet that they go unnoticed. Capricorns are so guarded that they are never themselves in front of others. This makes it extremely difficult for others to make a real connection with them.
We are like a contradiction because we want love and appreciation as much as anyone does, but due to our inability to make real connections with others we often find ourselves alone.
So that is me in a nutshell. Only a capricorn can truly understand another capricorn.
I've had problems in past relationships because I'm so guarded that the person I dated thought I was constantly hiding something from them. And I could never really be myself with them which made them think I was hiding things all the more. This tends to be the root to all problems I have in any relationships. Whether it is dating or just trying to get to know someone.
Anyway, I went out today to my ACIM meeting. I hadn't been in a long time. I don't know why I haven't been, just most times I don't feel like getting out. But when I do, I tend to get something out of it.
Tonight we were talking about Perception and Knowledge. There were some parts that really jumped out at me. The parts that jump out at me are the parts I'm supposed to explore. The words 'stranger' and 'strangers' came up a few times. In the word stranger, I saw the words 'anger', and 'range'. But in the word strangers, I noticed that all the letters in strangers make the word 'transgress.'
Been thinking about word associations and how words with the same prefixes and suffixes are somehow connected to each other. I'm not sure how, but I don't think they'd have the same prefixes or suffixes if they were not in the same category at least.
Well there was a part about recognition in the part we read tonight. It implies that what we recognize is something we already knew. Re-cognize. I found that interesting. Everything we recognize in someone else, we already knew was there.
Tonight I went for a jog, been meaning and wanting to for a while but I was hesitant. Because of my knee injury. Now that enough time has passed, it has strengthened. Another thing that was holding me back is the hernia. The specialist couldn't 'find' anything there when he checked me at the hospital. He was supposed to schedule me for another ultrasound, but haven't heard anything more about it.
So there is a set time for me to go out for my jog. AND I brought my skipping rope with me. I want to start doing that again, too. I didn't do too bad for my first time back out. I'm actually proud of myself for pushing myself outside of my comfort zone. I know that I will eventually start to see some results. Depending on the frequency. Like at the end of next month, I should see some improvements. I feel good by the time I get back home and I think I'll sleep better than I have for a long time. I need the oxygen in my blood. So I can go further with my recognitions.
We draw cards at the end of the night. I got: "Nothing you can do can change eternal love."
Someone next to me got: "What you see reflects your thoughts, and your thoughts reflect what you CHOOSE to see."
I'm still reading the book called: "Choices." Been taking notes as I go along with it. I write down what 'jumps out at me'. I end up with a condensed version of the book by the time I am done the book. Then I can review my notes as often as I like. There are a bunch of notes that I need to review. But the frequency at which I do so is a CHOICE. Every right/good choice we make creates a new positive program. Each new positive program allows you to make more right/good choices. Which result in more positive programming. This cycle can start with just ONE good choice. Positive programs eventually override the old negative programs that enabled you to make bad choices.
But it all boils down to the fact that everything we do, say, think, are choices that we MUST take responsibility for. Another thing I noticed with the word association thing is that words like responsibility refer to abilities. Some words outright have the word 'ability' in them. Like for an example: "Vulnerability". Every ability we have implies that we are able. There are words that even outright have the word 'able' in them as well, like: "capable." Those types of words connote abilities as well. Every ability we have make us all the stronger.
Anyway, now for a cup of tea and another episode of the show I've been into lately.
Oh, one more thing I will add is that I changed the picture on my desktop to something appropriate to remind myself of daily.
"We all could use a little patience." And YES!!!! Things WILL change for the BETTER. It's not a matter of how, it's a matter of time.
Capricorns are extremely guarded. We never let our guard down. Ever. Capricorns are extremely cautious and wary of other people. It becomes very difficult to know them. Sometimes they are so quiet that they go unnoticed. Capricorns are so guarded that they are never themselves in front of others. This makes it extremely difficult for others to make a real connection with them.
We are like a contradiction because we want love and appreciation as much as anyone does, but due to our inability to make real connections with others we often find ourselves alone.
So that is me in a nutshell. Only a capricorn can truly understand another capricorn.
I've had problems in past relationships because I'm so guarded that the person I dated thought I was constantly hiding something from them. And I could never really be myself with them which made them think I was hiding things all the more. This tends to be the root to all problems I have in any relationships. Whether it is dating or just trying to get to know someone.
Anyway, I went out today to my ACIM meeting. I hadn't been in a long time. I don't know why I haven't been, just most times I don't feel like getting out. But when I do, I tend to get something out of it.
Tonight we were talking about Perception and Knowledge. There were some parts that really jumped out at me. The parts that jump out at me are the parts I'm supposed to explore. The words 'stranger' and 'strangers' came up a few times. In the word stranger, I saw the words 'anger', and 'range'. But in the word strangers, I noticed that all the letters in strangers make the word 'transgress.'
Been thinking about word associations and how words with the same prefixes and suffixes are somehow connected to each other. I'm not sure how, but I don't think they'd have the same prefixes or suffixes if they were not in the same category at least.
Well there was a part about recognition in the part we read tonight. It implies that what we recognize is something we already knew. Re-cognize. I found that interesting. Everything we recognize in someone else, we already knew was there.
Tonight I went for a jog, been meaning and wanting to for a while but I was hesitant. Because of my knee injury. Now that enough time has passed, it has strengthened. Another thing that was holding me back is the hernia. The specialist couldn't 'find' anything there when he checked me at the hospital. He was supposed to schedule me for another ultrasound, but haven't heard anything more about it.
So there is a set time for me to go out for my jog. AND I brought my skipping rope with me. I want to start doing that again, too. I didn't do too bad for my first time back out. I'm actually proud of myself for pushing myself outside of my comfort zone. I know that I will eventually start to see some results. Depending on the frequency. Like at the end of next month, I should see some improvements. I feel good by the time I get back home and I think I'll sleep better than I have for a long time. I need the oxygen in my blood. So I can go further with my recognitions.
We draw cards at the end of the night. I got: "Nothing you can do can change eternal love."
Someone next to me got: "What you see reflects your thoughts, and your thoughts reflect what you CHOOSE to see."
I'm still reading the book called: "Choices." Been taking notes as I go along with it. I write down what 'jumps out at me'. I end up with a condensed version of the book by the time I am done the book. Then I can review my notes as often as I like. There are a bunch of notes that I need to review. But the frequency at which I do so is a CHOICE. Every right/good choice we make creates a new positive program. Each new positive program allows you to make more right/good choices. Which result in more positive programming. This cycle can start with just ONE good choice. Positive programs eventually override the old negative programs that enabled you to make bad choices.
But it all boils down to the fact that everything we do, say, think, are choices that we MUST take responsibility for. Another thing I noticed with the word association thing is that words like responsibility refer to abilities. Some words outright have the word 'ability' in them. Like for an example: "Vulnerability". Every ability we have implies that we are able. There are words that even outright have the word 'able' in them as well, like: "capable." Those types of words connote abilities as well. Every ability we have make us all the stronger.
Anyway, now for a cup of tea and another episode of the show I've been into lately.
Oh, one more thing I will add is that I changed the picture on my desktop to something appropriate to remind myself of daily.
"We all could use a little patience." And YES!!!! Things WILL change for the BETTER. It's not a matter of how, it's a matter of time.
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